Tag Archives: anxiety

moment of panic.

Posted on 4 May 2018 by what sandra thinks

I might delete this post because it’s awful. I had a moment of panic this morning like nothing I’ve ever felt. And that’s scary because I have felt really really bad… to a point where I didn’t think I could … Continue reading →

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running out of time.

Posted on 24 April 2018 by what sandra thinks

A-to-Z I’m in trouble. I have V written for tomorrow but that’s it. I have nothing else. I have been trying for days to get W written. It’s not working. I started… but I can’t finish… and I hate what … Continue reading →

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inadequate.

Posted on 23 April 2018 by what sandra thinks

This is long… and littered with obscenities. And pointless. And embarrassing to post. Want me to be real? This is real. You’ve been warned. Yesterday when I went to pick my daughter from her friend’s house, I was talking to … Continue reading →

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fake easter.

Posted on 9 April 2018 by what sandra thinks

We had our fake Easter yesterday. For various logistical reasons, my family had to delay it for a week. Although, if I really think about it, it’s fake Easter for me even if we celebrate it on the real day … Continue reading →

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song of the day. #56 #music

Posted on 6 April 2018 by what sandra thinks

My meltdown is not complete. What I mean is… I don’t know when it started and I’m not so sure it’ll ever be over. But what I know is that some incredible people have given me friendship, love and understanding… … Continue reading →

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meltdown.

Posted on 4 April 2018 by what sandra thinks

[Warning: This is dark. Really dark. And really bitchy. And maybe even scary. And just generally bad. My deepest apologies in advance.] × Sometimes it’s better not to talk about it. And by ‘it‘ I mean everything in my life. … Continue reading →

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sugar-coated.

Posted on 30 March 2018 by what sandra thinks

It’s not that I’ve been acting all ‘sunshine and rainbows‘. Is that the expression? Maybe I’m just making shit up. I’m not familiar with that state of mind. I prefer my own name for it anyway… sunshine stick up your … Continue reading →

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jinxed.

Posted on 21 March 2018 by what sandra thinks

Yet another post that I don’t know if I should publish. Maybe I’ll remove it. Due to shame. Or something. Hell, I wrote it yesterday. And trashed it. Then I came back to it today.  I’ve been so excited about … Continue reading →

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