bitchfest | w – writing #atozchallenge

#atozchallenge 2017 | bitchfest | what sandra thinks

w | writing

Hear me out…

I love writing. I really do. But maybe I love it on my own terms. Is that the same as loving writing? Maybe… maybe not. I love to write what I want to write. Could I ever, though it seems like a great idea, write for a living in a role that requires me to write on a specific topic, not of my choosing? Maybe I could. But I’m not sure. Maybe because I’m not a real writer.

I’ve always leaned toward the belief that a real writer is a published author or one who writes professionally in some other capacity. Is that true? Or is it all a matter of opinion? In a literal sense, if I write, I’m a writer. But in the same sense, if I run, I’m a runner. But I am not a real runner… I’m probably just being chased.

I play around with poetry yet really have no idea what I’m doing. I’ve written fiction since I was a kid but I don’t know if I’m following any of the ‘rules’ (which I don’t believe in anyway). Maybe some of it… the poetry and the fiction… is even good. I don’t know how to judge my own work. I only know if I like it. Does this make me a writer? I don’t know. I never thought so.

Am I just talking myself out of the label writer because I’m too afraid to pursue it? Because I don’t think I could get any sort of writing job? Because I don’t think I’m good enough to be published?

vintage typewriter.

Besides questioning myself far too often, I think the real ‘bitch‘ here is frustration.

When I’m desperate to get words on paper (or screen) and none appear.

When I know I could write if my random mixed up thoughts would coalesce.

When I can’t seem to stop letting every little thing distract me.

When I think I’d be happy if I could get a writing job but then realize that I may hate it or suck at it.

When I am so frustrated that I actually cry over it. (This is, perhaps, not as severe a reaction in me as it might be in others.)

I do love writing. And I hate writing. I guess this is true of almost anything. The love/hate thing. Anything. Except coffee.

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music | w – white stripes, the #atozchallenge

#atozchallenge 2017 | music | what sandra thinks
[Disclaimer: I am not a musician. I can sing. I remember most of the recital piece I played on the piano when I was 6. But I’m not a musician. I know what I like and what I don’t like and what will likely be the soundtrack when I arrive in hell.]

w | white stripes, the

I didn’t immediately love The White Stripes. But the more I heard, the more brilliant I realized Jack White is. I guess they’re not for everyone… but then, no one is.

They have lots of songs from which to choose… I narrowed it down to three… Fell In Love With a Girl (the whole video is made of LEGO!)… Seven Nation Army… but… they’ve truly made it when they’ve appeared on The Simpsons.

I hope you’ll watch the video… then I hope you’ll watch the clip from The Simpsons.

I had opinions that didn’t matter
I had a brain that felt like pancake batter

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other w artists worth a listen
Weezer — This song… it was the first I Weezer song I ever heard. I still love it… “If you want to destroy my sweater / Hold this thread as I walk away / Watch me unravel I’ll soon be naked / Lying on the floor, I’ve come undone…” Undone – The Sweater Song

song of the day
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music | v – verve, the #atozchallenge

#atozchallenge 2017 | music | what sandra thinks
[Disclaimer: I am not a musician. I can sing. I remember most of the recital piece I played on the piano when I was 6. But I’m not a musician. I know what I like and what I don’t like and what will likely be the soundtrack when I arrive in hell.]

v | verve, the

I know one song by this band… their only single that charted in the US… but I’ve chosen them because I adore that one song. I don’t care about the legal issues with the music and The Rolling Stones. I just love the song. It’s been 20 years and I never seem to get sick of it.

Bitter Sweet Symphony
Cause it’s a bitter sweet symphony, that’s life

Trying to make ends meet
You’re a slave to money then you die
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the place
Where all the veins meet, yeah

No change, I can’t change
I can’t change, I can’t change
But I’m here in my mould
I am here in my mould
But I’m a million different people
From one day to the next
I can’t change my mould
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no

Well I never pray
But tonight I’m on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airwaves are clean and there’s nobody singing to me now

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other v artists worth a listen
Vampire Weekend — The first time I heard this song, I had to know who these dorks were… because it was such a fun song… A-Punk

song of the day
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bitchfest | v – vanessa #atozchallenge

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v | vanessa

Vanessa. I hate you.

People say some crap things about Saturday Night Live, but I love watching it. I’ve enjoyed it since I started watching around the time of Phil Hartman (RIP), Dennis Miller, Dana Carvey, Kevin Nealon. I remember laughing at Chris Farley (RIP) (lives in a van by the river), [Senator] Al Franken (doggone it, people like him), Deep Thoughts, The Ambiguously Gay Duo, Will Forte (now he is known only as… The Falconer), Tina Fey, Amy Poehler, Jason Sudeikis, Bill Hader, Andy Samberg… and obviously, Seth Meyers (love him… but you already know that)…

It’s not perfect. There are always a few super annoying cast members. I’ve reserved seats for them on the PCF*: Rob Schneider, Molly Shannon, Chris Kattan, Rachel Dratch, Fred Armisen… I could go on but I don’t wanna.

But I think the good outweighs the bad. When I watch now, it’s for Kate McKinnon, Aidy Bryant, boy-next-door Colin Jost, Bobby Moynihan, Kenan Thompson, and of course Leslie Jones. I think she may be the funniest person on the show right now. Love her.

And then… there are the current cast members I cannot stand. One more than any other.

Vanessa Bayer… what the fuck is she doing on the show?

She is not funny. She is annoying as fuck. She has the same grating, whiny voice in every fucking sketch. OH MY GOD how I hate her! Little Jewish boy… or child actor girl… or literally any other character she plays — the fucking same. She makes me want to rip my ears off and use them to block my eyes. I desperately want to kick her in the face. How is she even on the show? She must be sleeping with Lorne.

Please NBC – Lorne – who-the fuck-ever:
Get her the hell off SNL!

While you’re at it, get rid of Michael Che (he’s such a dick), Beck Bennett and Kyle Mooney, too.

Thank you.

*PCF: The PCF or ‘plane crash flight’ is the flight which will crash and burn while loaded with passengers of my choosing. Think Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber, Kanye…

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bitchfest | u – uninspired and undecided #atozchallenge

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u | uninspired and undecided

I am reaching the end of my bitch-ability. Can you believe it? I cannot think of anything to bitch about other than the fact that I have nothing to bitch about… I’m uninspired.

Since I’m stretching anyway… I’m going to just go random. I hate that I was undecided when I went to college. We just didn’t have the guidance back then that students have now. There’s much more direction… much more future-thinking… future-planning.

I should have made lots of choices different from those I actually made. But… I made this and I’m proud of it. My mom has a print of it hanging in her home. I know, she’s my mom… she has to like it. But it’s the only one she has hanging… that means something. Maybe.

I had vowed not to post any more of my prints because those posts really fell flat. But I’m a little desperate. And I hope it’s not totally boring.

carved linoleum block, printed with giant manual press.
actual size is about 16″ x 20″ (around 40 x 50 cm).

My apologies for this post. I didn’t want to skip a letter… but maybe I should have! I am really reaching. I’m running out of things to bitch about. Damn, no one ever thought I’d speak those words…! 

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music | u – u2 #atozchallenge

#atozchallenge 2017 | music | what sandra thinks
[Disclaimer: I am not a musician. I can sing. I remember most of the recital piece I played on the piano when I was 6. But I’m not a musician. I know what I like and what I don’t like and what will likely be the soundtrack when I arrive in hell.]

u | u2

I’m not much of a U2 fan… not really. But because I have this funny story… and because U is not an easy letter… I offer this little anecdote.

When I was a teenager, I went on a school field trip with the French club to the Museum of Fine Arts. [Not that kind of French club… but then again, my boyfriend was also in the French club…] Mr. G, French teacher extraordinaire, trusted us to be mature enough to explore on our own and meet back at the bus at the specified time. But he wanted to be sure we knew he was serious about the time.

And so he said… ‘The bus is leaving at 1 o’clock… with or without you!’

The entire bus full of French Club students broke into song in unison like one big chorus…

With or without you… I can’t live… with or without you…

And holy shit, Bono is young in this video…!

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other u artists worth a listen
I’ve got nothing…

song of the day
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