Category Archives: anxiety

why I hate myself.

Posted on 20 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

I debated whether or not posting this was a good idea. I came to the conclusion that it is a bad idea. But here I am. Yeah. That’s not actually me. But it doesn’t matter. And now I shall tell … Continue reading →

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what is happy?

Posted on 17 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

I made a new friend. Here, I mean. Not offline. If you thought that, you give me way too much credit. Hell, I can’t even take credit for this new friend. He found me. And he talked to me. Yeah, … Continue reading →

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maybe you really like me.

Posted on 14 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

… or you really like that I’m miserable. I will explain. (Sorry.) You know how I always worry about posting my personal struggles because I’m overwhelmed with shame and embarrassment over it? You know how I worry that those posts … Continue reading →

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she fuckin’ hates me.

Posted on 5 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

My daughter hates me. This has been the case for well over a year. Maybe two years. Maybe longer. I can’t even remember. (And the last year and a half kind of melted into one big lump of crap, so … Continue reading →

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realizations.

Posted on 1 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

I think too much. I guess sometimes that’s good… like when I’m trying to solve complex math equations. But it’s also bad… like when I’m not trying to solve complex math equations. I’m incapable of living in the moment which, … Continue reading →

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misunderstood.

Posted on 6 May 2021 by what sandra thinks

They will never truly understand me. They will never take me seriously. They will forever think I’m just looking for attention or blowing things out of proportion or that I’m dramatic or lazy or weak or all of the above. … Continue reading →

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the anxiety of reading.

Posted on 4 July 2020 by what sandra thinks

If there was ever a question that I have too much stress and anxiety, rest assured, there is no doubt. I have a shit ton. Over the last few weeks, I’ve been reading. A lot. Thirty-eight books in about three … Continue reading →

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a pat on the back.

Posted on 19 March 2020 by what sandra thinks

[If you have strong political beliefs that are the opposite of mine, you might want to run now.] What the fuck? No, really. What the fuck? I don’t usually do this… It’s a risk. I don’t like to speak publicly … Continue reading →

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