Category Archives: depression

unworthy.

I have a trust problem. And it has nothing to do with the people in my life. It’s me. And it’s lonely as hell. [Before you start shaking your head and running from this post thinking, ‘oh fuck, here we … Continue reading

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good and bad.

How does one feel good and bad at the same time? I can’t figure it out. Either I’m doing well or I’m not. How can I be doing well and not doing well at the same time? I don’t know… … Continue reading

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the latest.

For anyone following my messed-up-brain saga… (And if you’re not, please skip this post… I find it thoroughly embarrassing that I have all these fucking issues anyway.) I saw my NP today. The last time I saw her, she made … Continue reading

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seven-letter word.

I’ve been having trouble writing and posting lately. But I questioned whether or not I wanted to post this. Maybe I decided to do it because I know I’ve not been posting… or maybe I’ve finally realized that since I’ve … Continue reading

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guilt and regret.

Both… totally useless. But how does one overcome them? This is not an instructional post. I have no fucking idea how to overcome them. I can tell you how they overcome me, though. I hold onto guilt and regret for-fucking-ever. … Continue reading

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new year.

Nearly five days deep into 2016, I bet you thought you weren’t going to find out what sandra thinks about the New Year. And you were almost right. I wasn’t going to do it. No New Year post. However. I have … Continue reading

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how I met their father. part 4.

Previous installments:  Part 1 – Fame Part 2 – Sandra Goes Wild Part 3 – Sandra Grows Up… and Down Part 4 – Uncomfortably Numb By the time John contacted me, I was a cynical, bitter, hopeless twenty-something. I had given … Continue reading

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enlightenment?

I feel like I’ve had an epiphany. Maybe. Half an epiphany? Maybe. I have my ups and downs. At certain times of the day or times of the week, I suspect the ‘downs‘ are coming. Yet I haven’t been able … Continue reading

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