Category Archives: depression

sleep.

I think I’m doing it wrong. I know I should try going to sleep earlier so I can get one solid reasonably-long block of sleep. But it just doesn’t happen. Edited to add: This is not because I can’t sleep. … Continue reading

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how my sunday went.

Sunday morning I woke up early. No one was awake yet. I didn’t get out of bed, though. I just stayed there. Staring at the ceiling. I started to feel anxious… and a little sick. I tried to close my … Continue reading

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hopes, fears, and guilt.

For some reason… oh, you know, my whole life… and just aging in general, I’ve been feeling more lost than usual since my birthday last month. But it’s all me. It’s not you… it’s me. [Yeah, I really did just type … Continue reading

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uncertain.

I’ve seen a lot of talk lately about blogging breaks. Maybe it’s the time of year… maybe it’s just coincidence. I don’t know… and it doesn’t matter. But I do have a point, I promise. I have been trying to … Continue reading

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out of sight.

Out of mind? I miss having friends.  I miss being part of something.  I miss writing. I miss good moods and good days. I miss ideas and inspiration. I miss drive and purpose. I miss being loved. I miss when … Continue reading

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disappearing act.

Wouldn’t it be great if after disappearing for almost a week, I came back and told you that life is good? That my mood has lifted… my kids are having loads of summer break fun and are getting along famously… … Continue reading

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no improvement.

I didn’t say anything but I had another procedure earlier this week… a different kind of injection in my back. I have had no improvement. I have been working on this since last November… seeing the pain management doctor since … Continue reading

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moment of panic. part two: more than a moment

Obligatory disclaimer: I might delete this post because… just because. I fear this may now be a daily thing. I keep having different versions of that moment of panic I had on Friday. And I wasn’t even alone for all … Continue reading

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