Category Archives: depression

what do I love?

Posted on 31 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

I need something in my life. Something that I enjoy. Something to drown myself in. Something I’m passionate about. I feel like the poster-child (although not a child) for depression. “Have you lost interest in things you once loved?” Why … Continue reading →

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I’m back…

Posted on 24 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

I’m not going to add “…and better than ever” (that’s a thing people say, right?) because that would be a lie But I’m here. And maybe it’ll stick this time. I’ve been trying to get back to my blog for … Continue reading →

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why I hate myself.

Posted on 20 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

I debated whether or not posting this was a good idea. I came to the conclusion that it is a bad idea. But here I am. Yeah. That’s not actually me. But it doesn’t matter. And now I shall tell … Continue reading →

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what is happy?

Posted on 17 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

I made a new friend. Here, I mean. Not offline. If you thought that, you give me way too much credit. Hell, I can’t even take credit for this new friend. He found me. And he talked to me. Yeah, … Continue reading →

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maybe you really like me.

Posted on 14 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

… or you really like that I’m miserable. I will explain. (Sorry.) You know how I always worry about posting my personal struggles because I’m overwhelmed with shame and embarrassment over it? You know how I worry that those posts … Continue reading →

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she fuckin’ hates me.

Posted on 5 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

My daughter hates me. This has been the case for well over a year. Maybe two years. Maybe longer. I can’t even remember. (And the last year and a half kind of melted into one big lump of crap, so … Continue reading →

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misunderstood.

Posted on 6 May 2021 by what sandra thinks

They will never truly understand me. They will never take me seriously. They will forever think I’m just looking for attention or blowing things out of proportion or that I’m dramatic or lazy or weak or all of the above. … Continue reading →

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guilt.

Posted on 25 February 2020 by what sandra thinks

Guilt. I hear it’s a useless emotion. But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel it. Constantly. No matter how good I feel… no matter how bad… how hopeless… how sad… how confused. No matter what I feel… the guilt is … Continue reading →

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