Tag Archives: fear

how my sunday went.

Sunday morning I woke up early. No one was awake yet. I didn’t get out of bed, though. I just stayed there. Staring at the ceiling. I started to feel anxious… and a little sick. I tried to close my … Continue reading

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moment of panic. part two: more than a moment

Obligatory disclaimer: I might delete this post because… just because. I fear this may now be a daily thing. I keep having different versions of that moment of panic I had on Friday. And I wasn’t even alone for all … Continue reading

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moment of panic.

I might delete this post because it’s awful. I had a moment of panic this morning like nothing I’ve ever felt. And that’s scary because I have felt really really bad… to a point where I didn’t think I could … Continue reading

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I feel like a bad parent.

After school today, my son went with some of his friends to hang out at a park. One of the kids… who he’s never particularly liked, let’s call him A… grabbed a bottle from my son’s backpack. Then, basically, this … Continue reading

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throwback thursday: the metaphor.

I had nothing to post today. I hate that. I know it’s not necessary, but my goal is to post once a day. So… this being Thursday, it seemed like the perfect time to start something new. New for me … Continue reading

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fear of failure… and success.

I have a fear of failure. That’s no surprise. But I also have a fear of success. And that’s messed up. These fears… both of them… are spitting all over my life. Finding a job… I’m afraid I’ll never find … Continue reading

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song of the day. #21

I’ve tried to write something in this space for two hours now. I can’t find the right words. I never should have turned on the television because it was on a regular network channel when I did… so I was … Continue reading

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what… and why.

What is wrong with me? Why can’t I do this? I’m not completely in the dark on this. But there are things that I just don’t understand.

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