Category Archives: anxiety

my head may explode.

Posted on 9 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

Frustrated. We are not in the best financial situation right now. John has a decent job that he likes and he’s been there for years. I got laid off many many months ago and I remain unemployed. We have money … Continue reading →

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okay. here goes. magic.

Posted on 7 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

I’m doing this. I’m a bit nervous. [Did I mention that? Can you tell? Is it showing?]  Man, poetry has really never been my thing. But apparently intense emotion has. I have a feeling each day’s poem will act as a … Continue reading →

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what have I done?

Posted on 6 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

I am not sure what sort of masochistic demon in my brain drove me to do this, but I did it. I suppose I could still back out but that seems weak. I shouldn’t be so weak. Or scared. Or fearful … Continue reading →

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time to accept it.

Posted on 1 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

I really do try to space out my ‘sad‘ posts. I don’t want to scare everyone away. Because, you know, I’m pretty f-ing scary. Boo. So, my advance apologies. Here’s a photo I took to lessen the sting of my patheticness … Continue reading →

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basket case.

Posted on 29 November 2015 by what sandra thinks

Anxiety sneaks up on me. I know it’s always there somewhere. But it lunges at me randomly, unpredictably. It grows into this huge fireball. It rolls around inside me, hurting my heart, making my stomach burn, tensing every muscle, rushing … Continue reading →

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not a blood relative.

Posted on 23 November 2015 by what sandra thinks

Thanksgiving is only a few days away, and I can’t help dreading the gathering. Too many people all at once. It makes me anxious. And it’s not even that many people! Oh, I like seeing most of them, but I’m … Continue reading →

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the burden.

Posted on 12 November 2015 by what sandra thinks

I have had a long enough history with anxiety and depression to know the routine. Of course, it is not supposed to be a routine. I am supposed to be able to break out of the circle. And I do… … Continue reading →

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a most important letter.

Posted on 12 November 2015 by what sandra thinks

Dear Santa, I have a short list this year — just four requests. I know you’re a busy man and even just my small list is asking for too much. But I haven’t asked for anything for years… and I … Continue reading →

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