okay. here goes. magic.

I’m doing this. I’m a bit nervous. [Did I mention that? Can you tell? Is it showing?]  Man, poetry has really never been my thing. But apparently intense emotion has. I have a feeling each day’s poem will act as a billboard to the world advertising my current state of mind. And they might suck, too. Please be gentle.



where is my magic?
I searched for happiness.
I craved a peaceful mind.
I needed a rest from life
and strength to carry on.

where is my love?
I thought it was inside
but I feel none of it.
I’m always looking, waiting,
trying to fill this space.

where is my dream?
I lost it in the night
where it once could be found.
I need it back for my soul –
it’s dying without it.

where is my pain?
this one I can locate –
I found it in my heart.
it seems to be my constant,
shredding my hope to bits.

where is my magic?
I feel it around me
but too distant to touch.
I can see it in them all
but never inside me.

~Writing 101 | Poetry | day 1


About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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54 Responses to okay. here goes. magic.

  1. Tiegan says:

    It’s pretty good.

    I think you’re underestimating yourself! If someone was to judge how could your poems would be just by the previous post, they would think it was seriously worse than even amateur.

    I don’t think it’s perfect, but I do think you’ll get a lot better as you progress. Good luck!


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  2. lolabipola says:

    I thought it was great! Better than any effort I could make.

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  3. lolabipola says:

    Here’s one I like (but its not my own)

    I wish I were a glow worm
    Glow worms are never grumpy
    How can you be grumpy
    When the sun shines out your bum

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  4. rosemawrites says:

    Oh why so nervous? This one’s great! I love the questions and your heartfelt answers!

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  5. Deb says:

    This was way better than what you prepared me for! Great stuff.

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    • Ahh.. that was my evil plan all along! No… seriously… poetry is kind of foreign to me. I sometimes don’t ‘get it’ when I read it (like, I don’t know why it’s good if someone says it’s good… or why it’s bad if it sounded good to me!) so I feel a bit lost writing it!

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  6. Wandering Soul says:

    you could never be able to write bad, even if you wanted to 😀 loved it!

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  7. sassandsauce says:

    Sounds really great Sandra. I loved the way you have expressed your emotions. 🙂 But I do like poetry that rhymes better.

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  8. Debby Thompson says:

    Well if that’s the first day you ought to be really proud of yourself. It’s a great start. Looking forward to reading more 🙂

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  9. gigglingfattie says:

    Great job Sandra! The feels going on in my heart are enormous after that!

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  10. Poetry does not have to rhyme to be nice. I like this. Its a lovely first attempt and I dare say anyone else to say differently.

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  11. wwwpalfitness says:

    Reblogged this on wwwpalfitness.


  12. wwwpalfitness says:

    A good start I can start with pain starting with A, love, beginning b, dreams going back to a and etc. You write well as always and you, as well as even myself can be a half a tick from a 9 to a 10. I think you have 10s in you:)

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  13. And now I found this! It’s wonderful! Don’t sell yourself short! Well done!

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  14. stephieann8 says:

    I think it is fantastic! I signed up for the same class and I haven’t written poetry since high school (15 years ago).

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  15. I dig it, girl! Well done!

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  16. Misky says:

    Well done. Looking forward to reading more of your work this week.

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  18. What a great piece of poetic wishing. The craving in this is so sweet. It avoids desperation in favour of an innocent lust and the structure builds a beautiful tale of hope.
    It seems you made a great start with poetry. The subject matter really lends itself to a free form declaration.
    You’ve done a great job here, it’s a fantastic place to have begun your poetic practice and grow your obvious talent.

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    • Aw, thank you so much… you’re very sweet. I was quite nervous to post poetry… but then I couldn’t stop. Although I’ve had periods of little or no inspiration… which I hate! I did an a-to-z challenge with poetry in 2016… so 26 poems. That was fun.


      • It’s a big thing to do. You never know what the reaction will be but it helps you grow. My first piece is still one of my favourites for the reason it was the start.
        The inspiration is something that hits us all. I’ve been gone for almost half a year and most of the time I was here it was spotty. Bad year, drive disappeared but inspiration always appears… even if it just gets scribbled on a piece of paper to work on later. I do love prompt work. your a to z sounds like a great concept. I’ll need to have a look sometime! I need to get back into that just so I can keep practice up.

        Regardless it’s all fun and helps relieve those creative itches.

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        • A-to-Z is a great way to keep ideas flowing, I think. It’s an April thing… I’ve been thinking of doing poetry for that again this year.

          I confess… because you read this, I went back to find your first poem. And I was amazed as I have been in that exact same place in my life. I still am in many ways…


          • Ah April…. What a fantastic spring project. You should totally jump into some wild and whimsical poetics this year. Live as a “why not”, never a “why”

            That first poem for me is something I’m still shocked that it resonates. I just assume I’m the only one who feels so far behind in life. The scarier part for me is I’m 18 months on from posting and little has changed.
            One day I’m going to write a reply to that poem that im not too old… as soon as I start getting somewhere in life 😄

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            • Hey… don’t be so hard on yourself about it… you are definitely not alone. I feel like I’ve been stuck for a very long time so I’m right there with you. Someday, I’d like to find an alternate reality where I can restart. 🙂

              By the way, I chose the Arts, too… and I have never used my degree. I don’t care what anyone says… it’s hard to figure out what you want to do with your life.


              • Oh an alt reality would be fun. The real world equivalent is to move to a new country. I have this silly dream of setting up in America. It’s enough of a culture change to feel like a new reality but all the day to day stuff is the same. Shame getting a visa is trial.

                It is hard making a life. Right now I don’t have a real world end goal. I’d love it to be my writing, I’ve not found anything else I like as much to do.

                The life of the tortured artist 😄

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                • 😀 Yes! I would love my writing to be it for me.

                  I’d be happy to show you around if you ever come over to America. Funny, I’ve been here forever and I’ve had dreams about running away to the UK. I guess we all look for our own alternate reality. Sometimes, that’s how I write… particularly fiction. I write as though I’m living in an alternate reality of my own creation. It’s awesome there! 🙂


                  • I’ve found that alot. It’s the ‘grass is greener’ mentality. The UK and US share so much but the cultural differences make them amazing new world’s for the foreigner to explore.
                    I’d love a guided tour when I make my way over. I’m planning on a visit this year. Was over in 2016 but didn’t get too far so I’ve got alot left to do.

                    I never write in my alt reality. those dreams are private for me. When I do dabble in the alernative is fantastical and eccentric. Less alt and more fantasy escapism. As long as it keeps us happy those world’s are brilliant to draw creative inspiration from.

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                    • I did spend 6 months in London when I was a student. I never wanted to come home… I probably should have stayed! 😀

                      I have some private writing (I call one my “secret book” which no one but me will ever read…) I slip into the self-created reality a lot for fiction writing. Poetry is more emotional and personal. I’ve been all over the place with it… serious, sad, silly, sexy, emotional… everywhere!


                    • I barely had a month in America and I regret leaving. I’ve been trying to get back for the past year and am only just getting to a place where I can visit. My friend says she’s gonna make flyers to try and attract single women who’d be interested in a green card wedding. Ahaha!!

                      I love poetry because of its emotional flexibility. My blog reads like a roller coaster of emotion with the odd bit of utter madness thrown in. I think that’s why I havnt written as much fiction recently. I’m so enamoured with the range of poetry I’ve gotten lost in it.

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                    • I can understand falling into poetry in that way. I think that happened to me, too, but I’ve been sort of blocked lately. It’s terrible. Although I have hope since I posted one yesterday.

                      Green card wedding! 😀 You’re funny. If it makes you feel any better, even though we just ‘met’, I think you’re a talented and awesome guy… I have no idea why you are single.


                    • Blocks are horrible. I’ve had my share. That’s why I love prompts. They can be great even if you don’t post anything they atleast get you thinking. The best way is the write through. It’s not easy but it works.

                      You’re very sweet to have such a kind description of me. I have no idea about most of me least of all why I’m unlovable… ahahaha 😂… 😔

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                    • Oh, stop… you seem perfectly lovable to me. ♥ But I do understand… I’ve felt the same thing about myself.


                    • It’s a horrid burden that we bear from time to time… Sometimes it’s best not to listen to yourself and chase magicians, even if that does lead to pyrotechnic accidents 😄

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                    • Ouch! But you’re right…


                    • 😊+😍×🎆=💀

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