Tag Archives: fear

oh rats – a poem.

Posted on 22 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

We stopped at the red light, Garbage truck ahead. Sometimes they smell awful, But this one wasn’t bad. I said when the light changed, ‘Hey, don’t get so near!’ And that’s when we saw it. It fell out from the rear. … Continue reading →

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enlightenment?

Posted on 22 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

I feel like I’ve had an epiphany. Maybe. Half an epiphany? Maybe. I have my ups and downs. At certain times of the day or times of the week, I suspect the ‘downs‘ are coming. Yet I haven’t been able … Continue reading →

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unexpected holiday joy.

Posted on 13 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

This afternoon, less than two weeks until Christmas, we finally got our [fake] tree down from the attic. I should rephrase that. John got our tree down from the attic. I do not go up there. Ever. I did once … Continue reading →

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my head may explode.

Posted on 9 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

Frustrated. We are not in the best financial situation right now. John has a decent job that he likes and he’s been there for years. I got laid off many many months ago and I remain unemployed. We have money … Continue reading →

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what have I done?

Posted on 6 December 2015 by what sandra thinks

I am not sure what sort of masochistic demon in my brain drove me to do this, but I did it. I suppose I could still back out but that seems weak. I shouldn’t be so weak. Or scared. Or fearful … Continue reading →

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moving picture.

Posted on 2 October 2015 by what sandra thinks

A long time ago, I imagined a picture of what my life should become. It’s mostly unrealistic and unachievable, and whenever my real life veers from this preconception (which is constantly), I view it as a failure. And I focus on … Continue reading →

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hoping like a pessimist.

Posted on 16 September 2015 by what sandra thinks

I am currently unemployed and have been for a while. I welcomed my layoff, a result of downsizing during a corporate merger. It came at a time when I was ready for a break and for a chance to be … Continue reading →

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writing, the early years.

Posted on 15 September 2015 by what sandra thinks

Words. And paper. I love them both. I have been writing since I was a child. In my teenage years, the words morphed into angst-ridden stories and poems of love and loneliness. At 18, I left for college, aimless in every … Continue reading →

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