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seconds later.

seconds later. I woke up feeling hope today, Rested, strong, maybe even okay. But seconds later… My insides twisted into knots, Worry and fear invading my thoughts. I knew just how to clear my head – Straighten up this room … Continue reading

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dreadful conversation.

Every year, the conversation I dread sneaks up on me like a big bad stomach virus. Christmas. What do your kids want for Christmas? Where’s your list? You have a list, right? For everyone, right? What do you want for … Continue reading

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my true love.

my true love. You wrap me up and keep me warm – Comforted, loved, and safe from harm. You lift me when I’m broken down. I cannot live without you around. You give me strength, you give me hope. You make … Continue reading

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my head may explode.

Frustrated. We are not in the best financial situation right now. John has a decent job that he likes and he’s been there for years. I got laid off many many months ago and I remain unemployed. We have money … Continue reading

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okay. here goes. magic.

I’m doing this. I’m a bit nervous. [Did I mention that? Can you tell? Is it showing?]  Man, poetry has really never been my thing. But apparently intense emotion has. I have a feeling each day’s poem will act as a … Continue reading

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what have I done?

I am not sure what sort of masochistic demon in my brain drove me to do this, but I did it. I suppose I could still back out but that seems weak. I shouldn’t be so weak. Or scared. Or fearful … Continue reading

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time to accept it.

I really do try to space out my ‘sad‘ posts. I don’t want to scare everyone away. Because, you know, I’m pretty f-ing scary. Boo. So, my advance apologies. Here’s a photo I took to lessen the sting of my patheticness … Continue reading

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basket case.

Anxiety sneaks up on me. I know it’s always there somewhere. But it lunges at me randomly, unpredictably. It grows into this huge fireball. It rolls around inside me, hurting my heart, making my stomach burn, tensing every muscle, rushing … Continue reading

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