Tag Archives: depression

blame.

Posted on 2 October 2018 by what sandra thinks

Why is it so hard for me to believe that everything’s not my fault? I try to tell myself that’s not true, but I don’t believe me. What takes over is… something else. Everything wrong in every part of my … Continue reading →

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sleep.

Posted on 21 September 2018 by what sandra thinks

I think I’m doing it wrong. I know I should try going to sleep earlier so I can get one solid reasonably-long block of sleep. But it just doesn’t happen. Edited to add: This is not because I can’t sleep. … Continue reading →

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writer’s death.

Posted on 5 September 2018 by what sandra thinks

I don’t write anymore and I hate it. I used to look forward to having time to sit down with my laptop and write to my heart’s content. Fiction, poetry, and whatever else came to mind. But that is no … Continue reading →

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how my sunday went.

Posted on 20 August 2018 by what sandra thinks

Sunday morning I woke up early. No one was awake yet. I didn’t get out of bed, though. I just stayed there. Staring at the ceiling. I started to feel anxious… and a little sick. I tried to close my … Continue reading →

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hopes, fears, and guilt.

Posted on 9 July 2018 by what sandra thinks

For some reason… oh, you know, my whole life… and just aging in general, I’ve been feeling more lost than usual since my birthday last month. But it’s all me. It’s not you… it’s me. [Yeah, I really did just type … Continue reading →

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uncertain.

Posted on 5 July 2018 by what sandra thinks

I’ve seen a lot of talk lately about blogging breaks. Maybe it’s the time of year… maybe it’s just coincidence. I don’t know… and it doesn’t matter. But I do have a point, I promise. I have been trying to … Continue reading →

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out of sight.

Posted on 27 June 2018 by what sandra thinks

Out of mind? I miss having friends.  I miss being part of something.  I miss writing. I miss good moods and good days. I miss ideas and inspiration. I miss drive and purpose. I miss being loved. I miss when … Continue reading →

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disappearing act.

Posted on 24 June 2018 by what sandra thinks

Wouldn’t it be great if after disappearing for almost a week, I came back and told you that life is good? That my mood has lifted… my kids are having loads of summer break fun and are getting along famously… … Continue reading →

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