Category Archives: depression

I’m here… but…

Posted on 25 February 2019 by what sandra thinks

This post has been in my draft folder since the 14th of December. I just haven’t felt like I was good enough to be around anyone… even online. But then I was isolated and I felt worse. Thank you to … Continue reading →

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holiday busyness.

Posted on 14 December 2018 by what sandra thinks

I have been busy. I blame Christmas. Or I credit Christmas, depending on my perspective at any given moment. I’m tired. I feel stressed… burnt out. But I don’t feel hopelessly bored and scared and useless. Well, not entirely, anyway. It feels like … Continue reading →

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asleep.

Posted on 16 November 2018 by what sandra thinks

In search of the elusive ‘solution‘ to the crushing feelings of sadness that creep up on me daily, I seem to have fallen into my own special fucked-up coping mechanism. Something unhealthy. You see, I have not wanted to admit … Continue reading →

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emotional tagging.

Posted on 22 October 2018 by what sandra thinks

I try to always tag my posts appropriately so they can be found easily by anyone looking for a specific topic. I assume that is how some people find this blog. I don’t think there is an ‘official‘ way to … Continue reading →

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blame.

Posted on 2 October 2018 by what sandra thinks

Why is it so hard for me to believe that everything’s not my fault? I try to tell myself that’s not true, but I don’t believe me. What takes over is… something else. Everything wrong in every part of my … Continue reading →

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sleep.

Posted on 21 September 2018 by what sandra thinks

I think I’m doing it wrong. I know I should try going to sleep earlier so I can get one solid reasonably-long block of sleep. But it just doesn’t happen. Edited to add: This is not because I can’t sleep. … Continue reading →

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how my sunday went.

Posted on 20 August 2018 by what sandra thinks

Sunday morning I woke up early. No one was awake yet. I didn’t get out of bed, though. I just stayed there. Staring at the ceiling. I started to feel anxious… and a little sick. I tried to close my … Continue reading →

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hopes, fears, and guilt.

Posted on 9 July 2018 by what sandra thinks

For some reason… oh, you know, my whole life… and just aging in general, I’ve been feeling more lost than usual since my birthday last month. But it’s all me. It’s not you… it’s me. [Yeah, I really did just type … Continue reading →

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