Category Archives: anxiety

the monster.

Posted on 5 November 2016 by what sandra thinks

Someone has come into my life. More like barged in. And more like something, not someone. I call him Franx. (Him? I have no fucking idea if this thing even has a gender. For now, him.) He’s a fucking monster. … Continue reading →

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notes.

Posted on 7 October 2016 by what sandra thinks

It has been the week from hell. Inside… outside… and every other way possible. Fuck, I’m kind of surprised I’m even here. And none of the hell is going away… so I expect future hell. Before I land in actual … Continue reading →

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am I?

Posted on 30 September 2016 by what sandra thinks

When I’m alone with this I want to call for you but it doesn’t matter how much you care or don’t you won’t know what to say and that’s not your fault I count on no one not even myself … Continue reading →

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scared.

Posted on 27 September 2016 by what sandra thinks

I am scared. I think my denial has gone too far but I’ve not been able to stop it or get out of it. Warning… colorful language ahead. I assume. I haven’t written this yet, but I already know. And … Continue reading →

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moment.

Posted on 3 September 2016 by what sandra thinks

The moment you go you return I need a break complete separation You can have some of my time but you cannot take it all from me You are hell and nightmares You should stay away from me when it … Continue reading →

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school and the end.

Posted on 1 September 2016 by what sandra thinks

Today is August 31st. (I’m sure by the time I hit publish, it will be September 1st…) And as much as August is my enemy, it sucks that it’s ending. Warning/Disclaimer/Apology: Sorry for the less-than-joyful nature of this post. I … Continue reading →

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the truth is…

Posted on 11 August 2016 by what sandra thinks

The truth is… I’ve been hiding again. The truth is… I don’t know if posting this is a good idea. (Oh, hell, I’m sure it’s not. But apparently, I’m an idiot.) The truth is… sometimes talking about certain things make … Continue reading →

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is this a fail?

Posted on 14 July 2016 by what sandra thinks

[Sorry, I’m a self-centered bitch today… and I really hope you don’t all think I’m a complete nutball. I swear, there is more to me than this. Boobs, for example.] Why is it that no matter what I do I … Continue reading →

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