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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.

maybe you really like me.

Posted on 14 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

… or you really like that I’m miserable. I will explain. (Sorry.) You know how I always worry about posting my personal struggles because I’m overwhelmed with shame and embarrassment over it? You know how I worry that those posts … Continue reading →

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I did a thing.

Posted on 11 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

Remember this post about my daughter? Yeah, the one right before this one. Well… I did something that maybe I shouldn’t have done, but it’s too late now. There’s no going back. That bit about giving her what she wants … Continue reading →

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she fuckin’ hates me.

Posted on 5 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

My daughter hates me. This has been the case for well over a year. Maybe two years. Maybe longer. I can’t even remember. (And the last year and a half kind of melted into one big lump of crap, so … Continue reading →

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writing, rewriting, reading, rereading.

Posted on 5 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

My blog started six years ago as a creative outlet for my fiction writing. I wanted to share my writing anonymously so I would never have to face anyone who thought I was a shit writer. I started writing poetry, … Continue reading →

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realizations.

Posted on 1 October 2021 by what sandra thinks

I think too much. I guess sometimes that’s good… like when I’m trying to solve complex math equations. But it’s also bad… like when I’m not trying to solve complex math equations. I’m incapable of living in the moment which, … Continue reading →

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jess(i)e’s girl.

Posted on 25 September 2021 by what sandra thinks

Here is my closet’s most recent acquisition. Isn’t it beautiful? (Pssst… no, that is not a spelling error.) It’s the sexiest shirt I own. And not because it’s slim-fitting and really brings out my boobs. It’s because of Jesse. I … Continue reading →

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I feel… tired anxious sad helpless… done.

Posted on 20 September 2021 by what sandra thinks

Did you ever notice that when you’re not doing well and it feels like the world is collapsing around you, something even worse happens and you just want to crawl into a hole and die? No? Just me? Okay. I’m … Continue reading →