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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.

strength in crying.

Posted on 22 December 2021 by what sandra thinks

“You don’t cry because you are weak. You cry because you have been strong for too long.” If you know me, you know that motivational lines and quotes like the one above make me roll my eyes. And cringe. And … Continue reading →

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wardrobe change.

Posted on 5 December 2021 by what sandra thinks

Nobody will let me change. In my teens, I started to notice I wasn’t as happy as my friends, and my wardrobe took a dark turn toward various shades of black (such as black, blacker, and blackest). In my 20s, … Continue reading →

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I need you.

Posted on 30 November 2021 by what sandra thinks

Throughout my life, in every relationship I’ve ever had—in romance, in friendship, in my family—I’ve always been the insecure, needy one. Maybe that’s whyalmost everyone eventually leaves. (I will amend: Maybe that’s why almost *everyone I don’t want to leave* … Continue reading →

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the perk (the return!?) #34

Posted on 23 November 2021 by what sandra thinks

For those of you who haven’t been following this blog for five years or something like that, please allow me to explain this post. Once upon a time, I tried to train myself to think more positively. (As you can … Continue reading →

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help. I need help.

Posted on 20 November 2021 by what sandra thinks

I don’t know how to explain this without explaining it, but that’s exactly what I need to do. I don’t want to share the actual details because it’s too personal. I know—I really have no filter here so this probably … Continue reading →

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just stop.

Posted on 13 November 2021 by what sandra thinks

I guess I’ve been doing everything wrong. And my family wants nothing to do with me because of it. Lately, each of the four of us (me, son, daughter, husband) have had our own shit to deal with, and in … Continue reading →

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why not me?

Posted on 10 November 2021 by what sandra thinks

Let me just start by saying… What the fuck? Yesterday, I had a bad day. I had too much going on, both inside and outside my head. I woke up exhausted, so much so that I took a nap at … Continue reading →

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I’m losing it.

Posted on 9 November 2021 by what sandra thinks

I have read 91 books this year. But I’m losing my reading bug. [Can I just add that I spent a solid fifteen minutes trying to think of (and look up) another word to use for “bug” in this sentence, … Continue reading →

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