fiction friday 58: back to you. part 4.

fiction friday.

I’ve been thinking about moving ‘fiction friday’ to a new day… (and no longer calling it ‘fiction friday’, I suppose). But in the meantime… the story continues… 

back to you. part 4. [previous: part 1 | part 2 | part 3]

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Ava’s phone: Dani? The love of your life… c’mon… who?
Dani: I think you know
Ava’s phone: tell me…

For a moment, Adam closed his eyes. Maybe he was trying to prepare himself for what he was about to see, but that was impossible. After a few deep breaths, he felt Ava’s phone vibrate in his hand. One more breath that didn’t calm him at all and he opened eyes to read the screen.

Dani: Adam

Adam gasped and his breath quickened. His hands shook so much he wasn’t sure he could type another word. But he had to.

Ava’s phone: is he the reason?
Dani: the reason for what?
Ava’s phone: the reason you’re scared… and can’t sleep…?
Dani: maybe. oh god what am I saying? Of course he’s the reason… he’s just… dammit…

A smile appeared on Adam’s face. He could picture her expression as she said those words… frustrated with the hint of a smile. Frustrated with him… for being him.

Ava’s phone: he’s just… what?
Dani: he’s the one… he’s always been the one. I don’t know how I got here

Adam could feel her tears and it hurt his heart.

Dani: god I miss him
Ava’s phone: I miss you, too
Dani: what? you mean he misses me? you tell me that all the time
Ava’s phone: it’s true
Dani: but that night… when I told him I was moving all the way to SF for school… he walked out. he wouldn’t talk to me
Ava’s phone: because he couldn’t go with you and he didn’t want you to leave. you broke his heart

Adam knew it was bad for him to talk about himself in the third person. Dani wasn’t supposed to keep believing she was talking to Ava. But he was in too deep. And he didn’t know how to get out.

Dani: I’m hate that I did that… I’m sorry I did it… and I hate that he’s never going to forgive me
Ava’s phone: you’ve been forgiven for a very long time. you must know that.
Dani: then why doesn’t he talk to me?
Ava’s phone: you’re with someone else. do you want him to break you and Finn up?
Dani: oh god… I don’t know
Ava’s phone: I think you know. but tomorrow’s your wedding. Adam’s going to try to convince himself to give up
Dani: maybe I don’t want him to give up

With a hand over his heart, Adam tried desperately to breathe. She still wants me. Adam wanted the same thing Dani wanted. For the other to persist, to keep holding on, to keep trying to get back to each other. But neither of them could make a move.

Ava’s phone: Dani, don’t cry
Dani: I hate that you know I’m crying
Ava’s phone: no, you love that I know you so well
Dani: yeah, I do
Ava’s phone: hey… you’re going to be fine
Dani: I don’t want to be fine. shouldn’t I be better than fine? this is for the rest of my life! I want more than fine!
Ava’s phone: Dani… how many questions have I asked?
Dani: 9… 10 if we count that one about how many questions you’ve asked
Ava’s phone: I love how you can make jokes even when you’re in tears
Dani: shut up

Again, Adam smiled. He missed everything about her… her eyes, her laugh, her sense of humor, and her emotions that she always thinks are out of control.

Ava’s phone: you still love him… Adam, I mean…
Dani: I’ll always love him

Somewhere inside, Adam knew he still had her love. But seeing the words… he thought his heart was going to jump out of his chest. He wanted to blurt out the truth… that she was talking to him. He wanted to tell her he loved her and wanted her back. But it was too late for him.

Dani was getting married tomorrow. He wouldn’t ruin her day… her happiness. If that wedding wasn’t going to happen, Dani had to stop it. And if she didn’t – if she was willing to give Adam up – he needed to know.

Ava’s phone: I want you to be happy
Dani: I know you do. I’m going to be okay, right?
Ava’s phone: yes, you are… and you need to get some sleep
Dani: I hope I can
Ava’s phone: you can. just close your eyes and think of something that makes you feel content and happy… something like… home


©2017 what sandra thinks

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy, too. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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53 Responses to fiction friday 58: back to you. part 4.

  1. Meg Sorick says:

    Dani better call off the damn wedding! Wait till Ava sees all the texts on her phone! Muahahahaha!!!

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  2. Yeah, he’s in deep here, and Dani will be pissed that he’s played along with these texts. He’s got himself in a bit of a pickle here. If I were Adam, I’d suddenly appear on Dani’s doorstep, under the guise of just clearing the air from the past, etc. Like now. Then see what happens, with emotions high and all.

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  3. Halycon Prana says:



  4. Halycon Prana says:

    You write so well, you so easily capture the intimate intensity between the 2 characters.

    Liked by 1 person

  5. Yikes, she can’t marry Finn, it’s just wrong!

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  6. magarisa says:

    My heart swelled as I read this. Wow, Sandra, this is really good.

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  8. mandibelle16 says:

    I’ve been missing your Friday Fiction! Ava needs to stop the wedding stat and Adam needs to go up to her and tell her it was him on the phone. We know he’s the right guy and will always regret it if he doesn’t say something!

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  9. mandibelle16 says:

    Sorry I meant Dani needs to call off the wedding stat lol.

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  21. Just tell us where this wedding is due to take place and we’ll all go to object.

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