sevens again. day 3.

Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation.
Challenge someone new each day
.


This is my second time doing this… I’ll get to all seven days eventually… I promise. But hey, it doesn’t say seven consecutive days… Thanks to my friend GF at No Love for Fatties for challenging me.

 

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all dried up.

vintage typewriter.

It has been a long time since I wrote any poetry or fiction or anything else from my imagination. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I hate it. I used to be creative… full of ideas. Now I’m just writing yet another post about how I don’t write anything anymore. It makes me so sad. I don’t fully understand what happened to me. I’m just not there anymore.

I truly believe that I’m finished. And that makes me wonder why I’m here. I don’t think I’m ever going to write anything fictional or poetic again. Nothing decent, at least. I suppose I could force it and come up with something terrible. But I think I’m all dried up. Like a shriveled up leaf… barely hanging on… soon to be blown off the tree… into a pile of others like me… until I turn to dust.

Poof.

I stole this from a very old post of mine. It’s kind of how I feel lately…

            I’m a picket barely hanging onto my rail on an abandoned fence, 
            Swaying in the wind, waiting for a gust to rip me free…

            So I can fall face down into the dirt beneath.

Yeah. That’s me.

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sevens again. day 2.

Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation.
Challenge someone new each day
.


This is my second time doing this… I’ll get to all seven days eventually… I promise. But hey, it doesn’t say seven consecutive days… Thanks to my friend GF at No Love for Fatties for challenging me.

 

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follow-up.

This is just more about yesterday’s post. Of course, feel free to skip over this if you’re done with me talking about that. Hell, I’m kind of done with me talking about that…

I think I know what I’m going to do with the name thing. BUT… and that’s a big but… I tried a test product design to get used to the interface… and it was confusing as hell! I may regret this whole thing. Of course, I don’t have to do this. I just thought an additional shop could mean more sales. Maybe I’m in too deep. Maybe I was spoiled with RedBubble… their site is so easy to use. This one (Zazzle) is crazy messy. Sure, there are more options… more customization for me and for the customer… but it seems to take so long. I was hoping to put up some holiday card designs but it’s taking forever… and I’ve only worked on one so far. Maybe it will get easier (and quicker) as I get used to it…

Anyway… mostly, I wanted to say thank you for your feedback… and stay tuned for a link, maybe, if I ever get this new shop stocked.

Oh… and by the way… right after I was thinking (and saying) that my Etsy shop would probably never get any business, I made my first sale today. I’m anxious as ever about it because my printer is a little old. I hope to hell it doesn’t die mid-print.

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thoughts? opinions? advice?

I have a problem making decisions. I’m not even sure asking for your thoughts will help… but I’m going to try anyway.

Here’s the thing (yes, this is about my shop(s) again)… as I’ve mentioned before, RedBubble has no overhead. I design, they produce and deliver the products. Etsy, on the other hand, is fully handmade… I print my designs, I mail out my products… so I need to purchase supplies, be sure I have enough printer ink, package and mail out orders. Significantly more work… and overhead.

There are other sites like RedBubble (I design, they produce). And I’m considering opening another store on another site… one that allows more customization and some different products.

My dilemma is this:
Do I name another store what sandra makes like the RedBubble shop? Or do I use the name I finally settled on for the Etsy shop?

I’ve decided to tell you the Etsy shop name even though I don’t know for sure if I’m keeping it open. [Also, maybe you’ll think it’s silly, so please don’t laugh at me.] I chose the name because on Etsy, I never had plans to sell anything other than cards/paper things. And the name made sense to me… my logo was cute… and I have small paper bags I would slip the cards into prior to mailing to customers. So there it is… paperbag design co. [Yeah, I even linked it. I might leave it open… I don’t know. If I ever feel like I’ve added enough cards and feel like I can handle it, maybe I’ll make a real announcement. But for now… this is what I’ve got.]

Okay… back to my dilemma. For the potential new shop, I like the idea of using paperbag because it seems like more of a brand name than what sandra makes. Also, it’s kind of separate from the blog. (And do I want customers to find this blog through my shop? I’m good with blog to shop… but not sure about shop to blog. Might be best if potential customers don’t discover how crazy I am…) However, in the potential new store, I might end up selling more than just paper products so does the paperbag name work? Does it matter? What the hell does Target, for example, have to do with any of their products? Of course, I won’t be printing or packaging cards at this new site so no cute little paper bags. But I don’t know if that matters either. (Same Target example here.)

If I had thought of the paperbag name before, maybe I would have used that for RedBubble, too. After all, I started with journals and notebooks there… they’re made of paper. But I’m not changing that now. (Not sure what’s involved or if I even could if I wanted to at this point.)

I’m also not sure I really love the what sandra makes name anyway. I didn’t give it that much thought when I started on RedBubble. I thought I was just going to design a few journals and notebooks and that would be it. Then I went nuts. Sigh…

Do I name the new shop paperbag no matter what I end up selling there?

Do I name it what sandra makes because I might sell all different things there?

Does it matter?

I think it might be clear from this post which way I’m leaning… but I can’t make a decision. And, of course, this is stopping me from proceeding with setting up the new shop. (And throw in some anxiety to hold things up, too…)

I’ve never used a poll before. I’ve used a pole. But not a poll. Please do leave your thoughts in the comments, too, though. Thanks in advance for all your wisdom that’s sure to follow…

 

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sevens again. day 1.

I know I already did this once but I was nominated again by my friend GF at No Love for Fatties… so I think I’m going to do it again. And if I slack off… well, it doesn’t say seven consecutive days. So there.

I haven’t been able to write much lately so maybe this is good for me. I’m not the greatest photographer… but I hope you like my pictures anyway.

Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation.
Challenge someone new each day
.

 

 

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I changed my mind.

And I may change it again. I don’t know. But…

As of now… I don’t think I’m going to fully stock my Etsy shop or make any sort of official ‘announcement‘ here. Not now… maybe not ever? Undecided. I don’t know if anyone has been waiting to hear about it… or if everyone forgot about it. In any case, it’s open with a few items for sale, but I’m not going to go any further with it right now. In fact, I might close it (before it ever really ‘opens’). I’m not sure.

[The RedBubble shop… what sandra makes… is still up… and will remain open. With the RedBubble shop, unlike Etsy, I am a mere designer. Etsy has overhead and more work involved. Granted the profit is significantly lower on RedBubble… but it’s far less stressful… far less pressure. That’s huge for me.]

For now… the Etsy shop sits there. Finally named… ten cards available… no one finding them anyway. Do I even share a link here? I don’t know. It all scares me. Whatever confidence and motivation I had when I set it up is gone.

I know it’s ridiculous not to go full-steam ahead with Etsy after I agonized over a name for so long… but I don’t think I can do this right now. It’s too bad, really, since the holidays are coming. It should be the perfect time for me to ‘launch‘. But I just don’t think I can. I don’t want to get myself in over my head. Hell, I still feel like a fraud anyway.

Who even buys cards anymore anyway? Probably not very many people. And there are already so many card shops on Etsy… no one would ever find me, never mind buy from me. Right? Seriously… who would care about my stuff?

Maybe I’ll change my mind tomorrow… or in a week… or some other time… and I’ll move forward with this. But right now? As pathetic as it may be, I think it’s too much for me.

Everything feels like too much for me right now. I’m on autopilot with the necessities… cleaning, cooking, getting the kids where they need to be and back. But beyond that, I’m useless.

I’m not sure what happened over the last week. I just know that I am having a lot of trouble with everything… big things, little things… everything. I cry so easily… and then I can’t stop. I don’t think I should be around people because it pains me to see happiness when I can’t have any. Maybe it’s wrong to say that… or feel that… but it’s the truth. I am in a tremendous amount of pain and I don’t know how to deal with it.

I guess ‘shut down‘ is what I’m going with.

Unless (Until?) I change my mind again…

 


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song of the day. #48 | song lyric sunday. #music

song of the day | what sandra thinks


This week’s theme for ‘Song Lyric Sunday‘ is… fire.

The song I chose has always been one of my favorite Snow Patrol songs.

The screams trapped inside… missing everything he wanted —

I felt every ounce of me screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me
All I wanted just sped right past me
While I was rooted fast to the earth

And that person Gary sings about…? I need one of those in my life.

There you are, standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close, ’cause I need you to guide me to safety

I just think it’s a beautiful song. Hope you like it.

swirly
Signal Fire / Snow Patrol

The perfect words never crossed my mind
‘Cause there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me
All I wanted just sped right past me
While I was rooted fast to the earth
I could be stuck here for a thousand years
Without your arms to drag me out

There you are, standing right in front of me
There you are, standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close, ’cause I need you to guide me to safety

No, I won’t wait forever
No, I won’t wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath
You are my signal fire
The only resolution and the only joy
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes

There you are, standing right in front of me
There you are, standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close, ’cause I need you to guide me to safety
There you are, standing right in front of me
There you are, standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close, ’cause I need you to guide me to safety

No, I won’t wait forever
No, I won’t wait forever

Written by Nathan Connolly, Gary Lightbody, Jonathan Quinn, Tom Simpson, Paul Wilson

song of the day

song of the day
Obviously I am not the owner of any rights to this song, video, or lyrics… just everything else… which isn’t much… ©2017 what sandra thinks
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