I didn’t say anything but I had another procedure earlier this week… a different kind of injection in my back. I have had no improvement.
I have been working on this since last November… seeing the pain management doctor since January. I’m exhausted. And I’m in pain. Some days it is so bad that I just sit there and cry for hours. That’s what’s happening right now… partly due to pain, partly due to the call back I got earlier today that the doctor is out of ideas.
I asked the medical assistant if it’s possible that the injection was in the wrong place… maybe too low… because the worst pain feels like it’s above where the injection was even though it also hurt there. It’s very difficult to pinpoint the pain because it feels so deep that you can’t really poke at it and find the exact spot. It’s deeper. And it just hurts. All the time.
So now I am seeing a physician assistant tomorrow morning. I don’t see what the point is if the doctor doesn’t know what else to try for me. Another copayment that I can’t afford… when obviously, there is no help for me.
I don’t see how I can live with this pain for the rest of my life.
I have been crying all day. I haven’t eaten anything since 7pm last night. And I have to figure out how to look like everything is fine by the time I pick up the kids from school this afternoon.
I don’t think I can do it.