Oh… not just girls. But tonight… I’m going with girls.
My daughter is 9… she’s in 4th grade. She’s had the same best friend since 1st grade. Earlier this evening, my daughter got a text message from this friend (A) saying that they weren’t friends anymore. And A was really cruel about it… telling my kid that she’s mean and A wonders if she’ll ever learn to be nice… even saying that she hates my daughter now… and more terrible things. But never explaining why.
My poor girl has no idea what brought this on. The only thing she can think of is that she was hanging out with another girl at school today… and she wonders if that’s why A is mad. Like my daughter isn’t allowed to have any other friends…???
I don’t understand this kid. She and my daughter have been chatting online for a couple of hours a day over the last couple of weeks! (And I’ve been letting that go on which is bad… I should really limit that. But that’s beside the point…) Now… suddenly, their friendship is over.
There were a lot of tears. My daughter didn’t want any dinner. She kept trying to figure out what went wrong.
Of course, there’s nothing I can do to fix it. But it kills me to see my daughter so sad. And then I wonder… I always feel like I’m cursed. Did my kids inherit that? Did I make them cursed, too?
And the way I feel… it makes me wonder why I ever thought I could be a mom. I’ve felt sick all night. Devastated, really. So sad and helpless… barely able to keep from crying… the same way I was/am with my son’s stuff. I am a mess… so down… and falling apart.
This is not how a mom should be. I need to be able to handle this stuff… it’s only going to get worse. And I’m seriously wondering how I’m going to make it… how I’m going to keep it together for my kids. I’m not sure I can.
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