disgust and anger.

I don’t know which is more appropriate at the moment. Both, I guess…

green dots.

I haven’t posted all weekend. I’ve been around… just not posting. First I thought maybe I had nothing to say but I’m not sure that’s true. I’ve got plenty on my mind.

Colorful language follows.

I’ve been avoiding talking about something because it’s stressing me out so much. It’s not, like, life-altering. But to me, it’s a big fat punch in the face. And I’m pretty tired of those. Seriously. I’m all set. Does anyone hear me? Life… you fucker? Listen to me, dammit!

You see…
There’s a park near my home. Though it’s illegal after dark, kids hang out there at night sometimes. Whatever… they don’t bother us. I was a teenager once, too. But… a few weeks ago, I went outside my house one morning and walked down the driveway to retrieve the empty recycle bucket from the street. And when I turned around, I noticed that some fucker hit my car. Right in my fucking driveway! No note… no responsibility taken… nothing.

I’m going to need a second book. This one’s full…

I am finally bringing the car in today to get it fixed. The problem is… since I have no idea exactly which dumb fuck hit my car, I have to pay my insurance deductible. So… here I am… unemployed… in a constant state of worry and panic over fucking money… and I have to dish out $500. Because some assface hit my car.

I guess the powers that be (if there fucking are any and if so, hey – bite me!) have decided that my life wasn’t sucking enough with the money/lack of job stress/anxiety/panic. Nope. ‘They‘ had to throw more crap at me.

I don’t know what I did to deserve this. Not just this one thing… but all of the things. One after the other. The hits just keep coming. How much more can I possibly handle? I’m barely handling what I’ve already got.

Yeah. What-thefuck-ever.

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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39 Responses to disgust and anger.

  1. Come on Sandra. Tell us what you really feel!

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  2. drainbrainx says:

    I’d be so fucking goddamn pissed as FUCK! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

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  3. gigglingfattie says:

    Oh no!!! 😦 that’s horrible!! I would be so angry if that happened to me. I hate pushing the like button on posts like this.. there should be an “I feel you!” button. Hopefully, it won’t happen again!

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  4. Assholes just keep cloning themselves, I’ve noticed. How does that even happen?!? Fuckity fuck fuck. 😣

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    • I imagine the dumbass thought backing into my driveway to turn around was a good idea… and he/she went too far… I mean really… why me? I do not need to spend $500… if I’m gonna spend that, I’d like it to be for something good… 🙁 I’m cursed.

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      • Ya’ know, I’d ordinarily say no way, drop a cliche or two, and try to pump you up. But…….I’m starting to wonder. Is the damage too bad?

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        • Starting to wonder if I’m actually cursed? Damn, as much as I think that, I hope it’s not true. I need some things to go right… if they’re never going to, well, what’s the point in me making any effort at all, you know?

          Oh, it’s pretty bad. The back door and bumper are fucked up (it’s a RAV4)… The shop dude said he imagines they’ll find more damage once they’re inside… but the appraisal is already over $2k…

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          • I was kidding….mostly. Runs of bad luck will make one feel cursed, that’s for damn sure. But no, I don’t think you’re actually cursed. Don’t you dare quit trying! That’s an order. Not really, of course, but you get my drift.

            That sucks about your car. $2000, huh? Well, if karma is real, and I most assuredly believe that it is, then whoever did this is gonna get theirs. Hopefully in the form of fire ants up their shorts or something. 😏

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            • Haha. My car is old… and I’m sick of it. Not that I can afford a new one. The rental is probably not a make/model I’d buy but it has all the modern touches… built-in everything…

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              • Nice, huh? I love new cars….but car payments are the biggest wastes of money on the planet. We drive ours til they die. Always will. I look at it this way: a serious repair may cost $1,000-$1,200. But that’s three, maybe four payments on a car loan…not to mention the other 56-57 payments after that. The payment stays the same for all those months, yet the value of the vehicle goes down every single time you drive it. I don’t care if it wipes my ass and gives out BJ’s, that’s a waste of money. Money that goes into travel, retirement fund, college funds, etc. I’d rather retire early than drive a flashy, overcompensating-for-something money pit. Even though we could buy any car we’d like, within reason, we refuse to be suckered by new car smell. 😃

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  5. Meg says:

    Oh man that does suck. People!!! Ugh!

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  6. People are fucking stupid. Here’s hoping that karma comes back around twice for that asshole.

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  7. I’m so sorry 😦 just what you need, right?? Rude, stupid people…

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  8. Get the anger out I say! I feel for you. Life can be a bitch sometimes x

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  10. stephieann8 says:

    I HATE when shit like this happens. I went through it with my ex. I never had any money but something was ALWAYS popping up. One day we went to the car and a street sign was through the window. A drunk person must have driven into it and made it fly into my car of all the dam cars parked around me!

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  11. Lennon Carlyle says:

    Well this sucks a bag of dicks…..I don’t even know what to say?!?! Karma…..she’s got your back and will avenge you!

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