letters | n/never #atozchallenge

letters | a to z | what sandra thinks

Dear Never,

Are you the answer?

Wait… don’t tell me. Not yet. Let me ask you the questions first.

When will I stop worrying all the time?

When will I feel like I’m a good person? A good mother? A good friend?

When will I believe others when they tell me I’m not so bad? When will I stop thinking they’re ‘just being nice’?

When will I have one whole day—start to finish—where I don’t feel hopeless for a single moment?

When will I find some joy in my life?

When will I stop feeling so much pain?

When will I feel beautiful?

When will I stop hating myself?

When will I feel happiness?

Okay now…

Are you the answer? …because I’m afraid you are.

p.s. — Dear Now, When should I give up? Are you the answer?


©2020 what sandra thinks

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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14 Responses to letters | n/never #atozchallenge

  1. Sandra, the answer to your p.s is the first question recipient, Never!
    This is very clever by the way!

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  2. Sweetie, you can never give up. You won’t because you have too much love for your children. I wish I could say it will get easier, but most days I feel like I’m just acting normal for everyone else because when I think too much the sadness is unbearable.

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