Not actually me.
Remember me. I was going to put a question mark, but I decided it’s not a question. It’s a command. I order you to remember me, dammit!
It’s been weeks. More than six of them. This has been my longest absence since I first appeared here on September 14, 2015. [I just looked up that date. I didn’t realize I started so long ago.] In the beginning, I had trouble coming up with post ideas. And now… well, here we are.
I created this blog to have an anonymous place to say whatever the fuck I wanted. Did you know that the day I started, I was particularly annoyed with my husband? That’s what drove me to finally do it. I wanted to bitch about him… to write what I was thinking… to get my thoughts out there—my thoughts that I sure as hell couldn’t share with my husband.
Despite my anonymity, I chickened out. I went with the other reason I always wanted to blog… because I love to write. And now… well, here we are.
I still love to write… I just can’t do it. Not to my liking, anyway. I have some (like, seven) well thought out (but incomplete) fiction ideas. I just can’t seem to… go.
But here I am. Maybe this time, I will be back sooner than six weeks from now.
Oh hell, I didn’t even tell you what has happened since I was last here. Don’t get your hopes up—there’s nothing huge.
I did have a birthday, though. Whoopee.
p.s.— All of this embarrassing stuff is still going on, though. But my lips are still sealed.
©2019 what sandra thinks
Good to see you, as always.
Happy Birthday for whenever it was. I hope the kids were kind to you, even if they didn’t buy you the best birthday present ever. Maybe next year!
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Thanks. My birthday was okay. I mean, if it had to happen at all, I guess it was okay. The only present I really want is for my kids to be happy. I don’t know exactly how happy they are, but I do wish they were happier. Maybe if their mother wasn’t a mess…!
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Glad to see you post!💜 It’s amazing how long we’ve chatting here! And don’t worry, I still understand your obsession with that singer SM. 🤣😃
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Shhh! 😄 I miss you! I guess I just don’t feel that there’s much in my life worth sharing… so I disappear. I am not exactly a joy to be around. Oh, but have I ever been? 😒
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I’m glad you’re back! We have a similar situation. Two people knew my pen name, and I was writing whatever I wanted… until somehow people found out my pen name. There are few places to hide on the internet. But, these are your thoughts and feelings. and no one should judge you for having them. I enjoy your posts, and I look forward to your next ones. ❤
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As far as I know, no one in my offline life has any idea that “what sandra thinks” is me. And, in turn, very few people here have seen my face or know my full name. And I want it to stay that way forever.
I probably should express my thoughts even more here than I already do.
But I might scare people!
Thank you for your support and kindness. ❤
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You’re very welcome. Your posts express how others feel but can’t express. ♥️
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I hope someone gets something from my thoughts… ❤
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I will remember you, will you remember me. I think that is how the song goes. Welcome back. Hang in there.
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Thanks… I do miss it here but I get lost often…
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You write pretty good 🙂 Xx
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Aren’t you cute… you always make me smile. Love that about you. ❤ 🙂
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I certainly hope it’s not 6 weeks before we see you again. I hope you’re doin’ ok. 😊
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When I make an appearance, I always think I’m really back… but then the harsh realities of my life and my mind take over and I end up back in hibernation.
I was wondering if I’d hear from you or if you just thought I turned out to be a shit friend! Happy to see you. 🙂
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Hahaha! You’re not a shit friend. We all have a life outside of this realm. Sometimes it needs tending to. We’ll leave the light on for ya’ though. Don’t be so long. 😊😊
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Oh, rest assured, I have no life… nothing other than the mundane to deal with. I wish I was busy with all kinds of happy, joyful, fun things, but I don’t have things like that in my life. No matter how much it shouldn’t be true, life sucks without money. The more I try to stop thinking that, the more I see how true it is. I need to go try to stop crying now. Ugh. This is why I disappear.
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Welcome back! Happy Birthday! Lord, I’m in a slump myself! What’s going on!?!?! Lol
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Thanks! I don’t know what’s going on but I haven’t been myself for, like, more than a year!
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wishing you a happy belated birthday! welcome back Sandra.
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Thank you so much!
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my pleasure. i hope your weekend brings you smiles. 🙂
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happy to see you back I was like maybe she got her life together now I have to get mine. It started off good but then summer hit today and someone said we had 6 months left in 2019 and I was over it already. Happy late Birthday hope you got to eat cake and not be judge that you had 2 slices really 3 but who’s counting …
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Haha… I had my own cake and I made it last for almost a whole week! Oh… Don’t worry… I didn’t get my life together. It’s as much of a mess as ever…
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Oh, I always keep you in my reader, sure that you’ll make an appearance–happy you did!
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That’s very kind of you to say. I never intend to disappear but it just keeps happening lately…
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Good to see you as always. I can’t believe 4 years has gone by since we started blogging. Ah, I was so optimistic and excited back then! Anyway, hoping you’ll stick around. Hope summer’s going well for you!
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Me too… well, excited maybe. I’ve never been optimistic! I keep thinking I’m going to be back here but then something stops me. I can’t really figure it out. Hopefully I will find some way to get motivated. It’s good to see you, too!
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It’s probably a lot to do with falling out of the routine. I’m finding myself in that boat right now. I’ve really slacked off posting regularly. We are in mid move too so that’s a good excuse!
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I don’t have a good excuse… I just haven’t been feeling it. I’m lacking motivation so I find everything hard to do. I think I’m just down. Wish I knew what would get me up!
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I did remember. And wondered. But now, here you are. It’s a good thing. 🙂
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Thank you. 🙂 it’s lovely to hear from you.
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Hi, happy belated birthday! Lots of changes for me this summer so far and they make ideal excuses not to work on my fiction! Miss you, I check almost every day to see if you’ve posted!
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You are so sweet! In not sure I have excuses, but I guess I pretend I do. I miss you, too. I hope you are well. I think of you often. ❤
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I’m going to start doing Kat Myrmans photo prompt and force myself to write something!
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That’s great! I really want to get back into it but it seems the only time I have the tiniest bit of inspiration is late at night when I want to sleep. I scribble notes but I’m never inspired when I read them the next day. So frustrating!
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I’m not inspired lately, either, but now that we’ve moved and I’m not packing furiously, I’m afraid I’ll get sad and depressed. So I’m trying to make myself write a little again. And do all the stupid carp I have to do like canceling things and changing addresses, etc. But, baby steps …
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Yes… take it slow. ❤
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I’ve missed you and reading your blog. Of course I’ve been MIA too quite a bit but I get it and I have a feeling everyone else does too. No worries, we’re all still floating around or hiding somewhere. Hugs!
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Aww… thanks! I don’t know what’s wrong with me… I just can’t seem to get in the headspace to write. I’ve even had dreams and awakened with fiction ideas, but when I try to write… nothing!
And I know.I owe you an email. I even had a reminder on my phone. I will write soon… xo
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Happy Belated Birthday!! ❤
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Thank you my friend! ❤
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How have you been?
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I’m okay. Not really much to tell. Things are pretty much the same. How are you?
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Sorry for taking ten years to reply. Had a minor crisis and WordPress kinda fell off for me, but I’m doing okay. ❤❤
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I’m glad to hear from you. No apologies… I’ve not been around much myself. Not sure how to explain my ‘issues’…
❤
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You are missed dearly ❤❤❤
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Thank you. ♥
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💜💜💜💜💜
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https://youtu.be/31IcwlH6FgE thought you’d like this 🙂
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That was great! Thanks for the link. He is so perfect. ❤
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No problem! Tbh, I’ve put him back on my Hot Guy Probation list due to how awful MIB: International was, but I’ve literally been asking for Double Hemsworth for some time now. 😂
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