a to z challenge theme reveal #atozchallenge

It’s time [well, it’s past time… I’m late… there’s a shocker] for me to reveal my theme for a challenge I’ve completed every April since 2016. The A to Z Challenge. I have huge reservations about participating this year… but I signed up anyway.

I still can’t figure out why I’ve had so much trouble being here lately. I want to ‘talk‘ to you all but I struggle to ‘enter the room‘, so to speak. I think I’m kind of embarrassed and ashamed that I’m such a mess. I’ve been working on myself for so long yet here we are. I’m a failure.

But… I will attempt to do this challenge… which, hopefully, won’t be another failure. But if it is, I deserve it this time since I’m setting myself up.

I was just thinking…

This is no surprise if you read my post from last week. It’s kind of a non-theme. Unless you consider me dumping my thoughts a theme.

My original plan was to have short posts… a sentence or two. But I am not holding myself to that. Some posts may be longer. Some may be something other than words. Some may be something I haven’t thought of yet. I guess you’ll have to wait and see. As will I.

p.s.— For the record, I hate the tone of this whole post but I’ve rewritten it at least five times and I give up!

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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33 Responses to a to z challenge theme reveal #atozchallenge

  1. I await with bated breath, a little trepidation, lots of anticipation, and a whole truckload of well wishes that you will succeed, enjoy, and come to see us with some great surprises. Hugs.

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  2. Hey, I’m just happy you’ll be around! What’d you mean by the tone of the post? Not rainbow and butterflyie enough? I got your back. 😏

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  3. You’re not a failure! I think you may be suffering from blogging burn out. It happens. Damn, it happened to me for nearly four months. But, then again, my depression took full reign over me.

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    • I’ve been barely blogging for months… I don’t even know how many it’s been. I’ve hardly been writing at all. I’ve not been doing much of anything… speaking of depression…

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      • I understand. When the depression is all too consuming, you have no desire to do anything at all.
        When I stopped blogging for that 4 month stint because of it, It was so difficult to start back up. But, I gave it a shot, and truly… It did help me quite a bit with my own depression.
        When’s the last time you saw your doctor? How long between having medications tweaked?

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        • Saw my NP last week. And we discussed everything… and you know, medication can’t fix everything. It helps… but it doesn’t change the life situation I’m in right now. Until that changes, there’s only so much meds can do.


  4. gigglingfattie says:

    Wooooo!!! I can’t wait to see what you have the motivation and energy to write! One day at a time!

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    • Don’t get your hopes up! I’m not feeling so great about this. I think maybe I’m not meant to be out in the real world. I’m not sure where I’m meant to be…

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      • gigglingfattie says:

        I’ll keep my hopes to medium then lol but I think it’s a great idea to even just try. I’m not sure how I’m going to do this year either. I feel like it’s going to be too much. We can struggle together.

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  5. mandibelle16 says:

    Hi Sandra. Nice to see your posts. I’m in and out of blogging myself. It makes me a bit sad, but I’m going through some changes myself (not bad ones) spots been hard to balance. Either way I’m happy to see your posts. You are not a failure. You are amazing. Each time you think you’ve ‘failed’ you always come back and good on you for doing A to Z. I think as a writer you are wonderfully talented. Have always been. I’m attempting NaPoWriMo but as most of my last couple poetry months I anticipate that one month taking two months. Looking forward to reading your posts.

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    • Thanks, Mandi. I don’t expect that I’ll have any phenomenal posts during the challenge, but maybe it will get me out of the hole I’ve dug myself into. It makes me sad, though, because in previous years, I was more excited about this challenge and I was proud of my posts. This time, I feel like it’ll just be a disappointment.

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      • mandibelle16 says:

        I think they’ll be good Sandra. Your posts always are. Sometimes what we don’t expect to be good, is actually quite wonderful, when we look back later. Stay well 🙂

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  6. Just happy you’re doing it! No matter what you post, we will be here to cheer you on Darlin! XO

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  7. Meg says:

    I’m glad you’re doing it too. Maybe having a challenge to post will help you get back in the groove of blogging. And it will be good to have you back! I’m looking forward to your ‘thinking’ because I miss your sarcastic humor. welcome back girlfriend. ❤️

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  8. jrvincente says:

    I’m so glad you signed up!

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  9. Hunida says:

    I love this theme, Sandra. So looking forward to April to see what you come up with. 🙂 I also love your new signature!

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  10. empressswamiii says:

    We are ready 😊
    And honestly, the tone is perfect. Makes me feel like we know each other and I don’t think there’s anything better than that

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