When I’m with people, I often feel suffocated or even annoyed and I want to be left alone. When I’m alone, I feel lonely, sad, unmotivated, and a bit hopeless and I wish there were people around. I think maybe what I want is to have people near, but still have alone time. Or to be alone but know people are out there thinking of me. Or I don’t know what the fuck I want. Probably that last one.
Seriously. How can I make myself happy? My brain is a clusterfuck of contradictions.
p.s.— I am currently alone. Sigh.
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