moody monday. #1

moody monday.

I don’t know if I’m really going to make this a regular thing… but maybe it will be entertaining… for you, I mean. Well, maybe for me, too. Or it will just make you think I’m way more nuts than you already do…

Something annoys me. Something about me. Well, there are a few things about me that annoy me, but today, one thing in particular troubles me.

When something ‘bad‘ happens, I overreact. Mostly on the inside, but sometimes with tears on the outside. I put bad in quotes because that’s part of the issue. It might not be something all that bad to anyone else. But to me, it feels like the worst thing ever… and I slip into panic mode… or intense sadness mode. Sure, sometimes, it’s justified… but even then, sometimes it’s a bit intense. But little things… they often affect my mood far more than they should.

Here’s an example:
Oh, hell, you already know this one. I’m freaking out that I’ve been unable to post the next part of my fiction (Back To You). As everyone who commented on that post told me — there’s no need to panic… no need to worry. Yet I totally panicked. I still am panicking, a little.

[Aside: I did write some last night. BUT I don’t think I’m going to publish a make-upfiction friday‘ post… I’m just going to wait until this Friday. So I will have skipped a week. Boo. See? Still bothers me. Which is nuts.]

I think I could explain better if I had another example but I can’t think of one at the moment. Maybe that’s a good sign? And lately, it seems that the intense sadness/panic doesn’t go on for as long as it used to. That’s good, too, right? (Fuck… am I looking on the bright side??)

Final assessment: pretty good mood. hope it lasts. (oops, negativity sneaks in…)


©2017 what sandra thinks

Advertisements

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves music, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
This entry was posted in personal, writing and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

31 Responses to moody monday. #1

  1. magarisa says:

    I can relate to overreacting to seemingly minor things. I do think that the sadness/panic not lasting as long is a sign of improvement; I’ve also found that my ‘episodes’ are shorter than they used to be. ♥

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Positivity?!? Who are you, and what have you done with Sandra? 😳

    Just kidding. Look, don’t invite negative where there isn’t any. Having a good day? Great! I’m super glad to hear that. Don’t waste that feeling by worrying about some other shoe dropping. Enjoy it! That’s an order! 😉

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Lol, this reminds me of the series I’m forever starting on my other blog (hiptobesnark). But I know how you feel – especially when something is incomplete and your pride yourself on keeping to the set schedule. It feels like failure when you don’t. That being said, with writing, I think it’s always better to be sure that you’re ready to post.

    The funny thing about overreacting is that eventually you forget about it until a later point and then you wonder what you were so worried about. Life, eh…

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Looking back I see that before my anxiety disorder diagnosis, I overreacted a lot in life. But it didn’t seem that way when I was going thru all those years. Mostly it was manageable but I was SO emotional all the time. Bad or good. Still fight it sometimes and I appreciate how hard you have to work at staying positive. Exercise saves me. and a good night’s sleep, but not tonight. For some reason sleep is eluding me… love you, my friend ❤

    Liked by 1 person

    • It does seem manageable… mostly. But sometimes, some things just seem so terrible that I kind of freak out. I do think it’s better than it was even just six months ago. I do get pretty emotional for all sorts of reasons… some rational, some not. Maybe some day I’ll have a better handle on it. Oh… and obviously, I’m still awake, too… 🙂 love you, too ❤

      Like

      • You seem to be writing more lately and that is so wonderful. Hope the kids and hubby are doing well, too. Can you believe it’s August already? I’m just not ready for the summer to end!

        Liked by 1 person

        • Oh, I’m not ready either. Add much as the kids drive me crazy (they are in a phase where they always seem to have something to fight about), when summer’s over, I need to find some kind of job… And I’m not looking forward to it… and it sucks for the kids because they really need me to be around to drive them to activities and stuff like that. I don’t want them to have to quit everything…

          Like

  5. I’m glad that you started this Moody Monday thing. Reading the comments from this post (or some of them as I scrolled down to make my own) it’s so awesome to see so much support for you! And the final mood assessment? Great addition!

    Liked by 1 person

thoughts? talk to me.

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s