good and bad.

faith | despair.

How does one feel good and bad at the same time? I can’t figure it out. Either I’m doing well or I’m not. How can I be doing well and not doing well at the same time? I don’t know… but that is exactly how I feel.

I have a headache. I think maybe I’m dizzy. About 10 minutes ago, I felt good. But now I feel bad. I feel a little anxious and worried. About what? Your guess is as good as mine. Yet I still feel good. But also bad. And good. And bad.

It’s well after midnight. Maybe that’s part of it. Maybe I’m tired. Okay, I’m definitely tired. But this isn’t a normal feeling for me… good and bad at the same time. I can’t even list what’s good and what’s bad. I mean, I could try but then I’d be comparing which list was longer and I’m pretty sure that wouldn’t end well.

Sigh. I am so confused. Which goes on the ‘bad‘ list.

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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10 Responses to good and bad.

  1. I hate the sleepless thing. Mind racing, jumbled brain, just won’t shut up. Glad to hear there’s a bit of good mixed in there though. That’s good. Right?

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  2. Meghan Tregellis says:

    At least it’s not all bad. And wide awake but tired might be contributing to the bad. Since I’m seeing this the next morning, I’m hoping you got some good sleep!

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