I’m with you. I’m one of you. But I think sometimes people misunderstand us. (Or is that just me?)
I don’t know about you, but I find that people sometimes think I’m a snob. They think I think I’m too good for them. The funny (not funny haha) thing is… in reality, I feel the opposite. I feel that everyone is too good for me. Okay, not everyone. But you know what I mean.
How is it for you? I know I’m like other introverts in many ways, but then my MH issues get thrown into the mix, and that magnifies things. And I hope you don’t feel the same way I so often feel.
I’ve never felt good enough. I’ve always felt that the extroverts are somehow ‘better’ because they’re so good with people, whereas I am not. They can do things I cannot. They can land jobs I cannot. They can handle a crowded room with ease but I cannot. I will go out of my way to keep communication in written form rather than talk to or, god forbid, see someone.
Are you as awkward around people as I am? Like, all the time, but especially in person? It’s why I wrote a letter to my family (that I’ll likely never send) instead of talking to them. Yeah, I’m even awkward with my family. It’s not as bad with them, but still…
Anyway, even if some of us are too busy writing, reading, and following other solo pursuits, it’s nice to know there are like-minded people out there. Because generally speaking, I hate people. Okay, not all people. Just most of them.
Perhaps weirdest of all, though, is that my best friend… the girl who lives hundreds of miles away but always manages to be there for me… is a total extrovert. Then again, I do think she’s too good for me.
p.s. — Now she’s going to fight with me because she hates when I say things like that!