I was just thinking | y/yesterday #atozchallenge

I was just thinking | whatsandrathinks

Yesterday, I was supposed to write my Y post. I didn’t. You might think I waited intentionally so I could use ‘yesterday‘ as my word. I didn’t. Just thought of that now.

Yesterday, I went to the chiropractor. I wish his adjustments improved my pain long term. They don’t. They barely help in the short term. Why do I continue to see him? Every time I go, I ask myself that question. Then I go back anyway. I’m an idiot. I’m just wasting money. If I skipped that co-payment three times, I could pay for a massage instead. And maybe I’d do that if I had any idea where to go for a massage.

Yesterday, I realized that my back pain is getting worse and nothing I’m doing is helping. I cried for a long time because of pain and fear of my future pain. I’m scared.

Yesterday, I made ‘healthy‘ Chicken Marsala for dinner. Tonight, I don’t have to cook because we have leftovers. Yay!

Yesterday, my kids moved up a belt in karate. Maybe they can defend me when I’m unable to do so myself due to back pain. And overall laziness.

Yesterday, I wondered what the fuck I was going to write for Y… and for Z.


p.s.— Today, I slept too much. I had coffee. I ate a banana. I forgot to eat again after that. It’s 5pm. I’m a mess.

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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21 Responses to I was just thinking | y/yesterday #atozchallenge

  1. Yesterday…all my troubles seemed so far away… 😕

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  2. There you are, you’ve achieved Y and Z.
    Yesterday, and the ZZZZZZZZZZ too much!

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  3. I stopped going to the chiropractor as I didn’t think it was helping me after several months. I need to go to the osteopath for an adjustment soon. Glad you have leftovers for dinner, us, too! I am too tired to cook lately…

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  4. Meg says:

    I’m sorry the chiropractor isn’t helping. And yes, you should stop if it’s not making a difference. Try massage and if you can find one, an acupuncturist. When spinal adjustments aren’t enough, there are other things you can try. Take it from the former chiropractor!

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    • In my mind, if he finds anything at all to adjust, maybe I should keep going. But it never makes a difference, so probably not, right?

      The problem with massage or acupuncture is that they are not covered my insurance at all and they are expensive. Even if I had a massage, it would be a one-off. I wouldn’t be able to make it a regular thing unless it was maybe 3 or 4 times a year. I doubt that would help.

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      • Meg says:

        I don’t know what they charge for massage in your area, but if you had a copay for the chiropractor that you weren’t paying… you might be able to go more frequently for a massage. The thing with adjustments is sometimes it’s ‘helping’ in ways that aren’t obvious. But your main concern: pain relief isn’t being addressed so I would see if something else worked for you.

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        • It would be around $100 for a massage. I mean, you have to tip them, too, right? I always have. Jeez, I wish I got tipped for parenting. The copay I’d save is $35… so about three of those gives me a massage. That would compare to about every three months. Other than feeling good and relaxing me at the time, I don’t know that massage would give me any long term benefit by going four times a year. My mind tells me massage is a luxury so I feel a lot of guilt spending money for one.


  5. Hunida says:

    Congrats to your kiddo on moving up a belt in karate! You should look on Yelp & read reviews for massage places. 🙂

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