I was just thinking | w/weakness #atozchallenge

I was just thinking | whatsandrathinks

I don’t really want to write about my weaknesses, but when I got to W, it was the first thing that came to mind. I wonder what that means. God, I’m so negative. Fuck me. Like, seriously. What is wrong with my brain?

I have a few ‘normal‘ weaknesses… chocolate, potato chips, cheesecake, nice abs (men… I’m boy crazy… or man crazy), talk dark and handsome (preferably not clean-shaven), male singers with sexy voices. Wait, are those normal? Maybe they’re not. They’re all food and sex related. Well, not sex per se, but, in my mind, yeah… sex.

But those are the weak-in-the-knees weaknesses. I also have opposite-of-strengths weaknesses. Lately, writing is one of them. And there are others… people, talking to people, being around people, um… also confidence (need some, have none), and a bunch of other stuff I suck at. Even some things that I used to think I was good at have become weaknesses.

I should have written about the food and sex weaknesses last to end this post on a more pleasant note. Does this help? I think it helps me.



p.s.— Should W have been ‘what sandra thinks’? I just thought of that now. Oh well. I remember when I came up with my blog name. I wanted to write my thoughts, even if they offended people. I could hide behind my anonymity. I could bitch about my husband, I could tell people who like country music to fuck off. I could say anything I wanted to say. But, to this day, I wonder if anyone really cares what sandra thinks.

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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14 Responses to I was just thinking | w/weakness #atozchallenge

  1. Of course we care what you think. I look forward to your posts and when you’re missing for awhile I worry. Sorry, it’s the mom in me. I’m enjoying these and I love how you manage to make negative things funny!

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    • I don’t mean to make anyone worry, but I will selfishly admit that it makes me feel loved when anyone does worry. My negativity usually tells me that no one will even notice I’m gone even though I know that’s not true.

      I’m glad you’re enjoying these posts. It’s the most I’ve posted in months. I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to keep up with posting more often after this is over. It would be nice if I could…

      I’m still behind by a day. I’ve got nothing for X…!

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      • I only did A to Z so I’d be forced to post regularly for awhile. Otherwise I flounder! I want my old life back. This new one kind of sucks.

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        • 😦 ♥
          I can’t even figure out why I haven’t been posting… or haven’t been around at all (until A to Z). I just think about being here and I think… ‘yuck’… and I just don’t want to. I used to LOVE being here… and love writing at every spare moment. Now, I seem to want to avoid it. I can’t figure out why.

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  2. I volunteer to be the other slice of bread to make the full sandwich of worry with Diane, I’ll be the Dad worry. Actually, that’s not entirely accurate. I refuse to worry, but will be concerned when you disappear for a while. No futile advice, just concern, and hugs, and we’ll be waiting here whenever you show up, because you’re worth waiting for!

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  3. Meg says:

    And that’s why this whole series was so great – I was just thinking – it’s what Sandra thinks. And of course we care! I look forward to your posts, too. Not that I like it when you’re really down, but I think it’s good that you have a place to vent and to get some kind words from your friends here.

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    • Being so isolated in my offline life, I am grateful to have my friends here. Lately, though, I have been feeling detached from this place… just indifferent. I can’t figure out why. I used to want to be here much more often, both posting and reading. Not sure what happened to me.

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  4. jrvincente says:

    I care what Sandra thinks! I love reading your blog. 🙂 Don’t give up!

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  5. Hunida says:

    I care what Sandra thinks 😄

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