I subscribe to my own blog. Is that weird? I get a weekly digest. It’s not an egotistical thing. It’s not like I re-read my posts when the weekly email arrives. Ooh! What did Sandra post this week?? No. Besides, by the time I’ve published something, I’ve already proofread it about twenty times. I’m sick of myself. I just like to see how others see my posts… and it gives me a picture of what I posted over the week.
Lately, I’ve felt very absent from here. I haven’t been writing/posting as much. Some of my ‘regulars‘ have disappeared. I assume the reasons are my lack of posts and my lack of time/energy to keep up with reading blogs. I have had less interaction lately. But I’d think fewer posts would allow readers to read more of what I do post… since it won’t take long.
But what the hell do I know? Maybe I’m just off-putting. Or maybe they’re too busy. But that reason flies out the window when I see the same people active on other blogs… just not mine. Do I smell? [Aside: Yes, I do. I smell good. Oddly, people tell me this all the time. Strangers, I mean.]
Got off track there for a minute…
My point is that although I feel like I’ve been kind of missing from this blogging world lately, I’m not as missing as I thought. I’ve posted four times in the last week. Sure, one was just a silly ‘joke‘ post, but I guess it still counts. I think I’m okay with this. Four times a week isn’t bad. Part of me thinks I’ll always be shooting for one post per day, but I can live with four a week. And I’ve started catching up with my post notifications. I just had to skip some of the oldest ones… or I’d never get to the current posts.
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Oh man, I write about nothing lately, though, huh? Well… maybe it will get better. I still have that compelling back pain update to write. [Sarcasm.] Oh… and I started writing a poem yesterday. A fucking poem! I know… it’s not a big deal. Except that it is… because I haven’t been able to write one for some time.
Maybe my brain isn’t completely incapacitated after all…
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©2018 what sandra thinks
I am also self-subscribed. 😳😁🙋♀️ Four posts a week is plenty, and you write well, so readers will follow. I look forward to your poem. 😉 I wrote my 1st one (ever) last week. It was “okay” at best. Sorry… but gotta say this American joke… “Smell you later!” 😬😆🤗
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Hahaha! That joke reminds me of Nelson from The Simpsons. And I can see why you had to say it… 😀 And thank you! ♥
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I think your brain is fine. The issue may be confidence, or inspiration, but I believe your brain is in fine working order. You wanna see a fucked up brain, mainly from self-induced abuse and trauma, look no further than this guy. Again, I don’t care what you write…I’m just glad you’re writing. 😊
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Oh, I don’t know about fine working order. I am a mess… and despite efforts to fix that, I’m pretty sure I’ll always be a mess.
Lack of inspiration is a problem lately. But confidence? That is always a problem. Always. Wish I could get some. I only seem to feel it in tiny bursts when someone else gives it to me.
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That shouldn’t be the case, you know. You’re funny, witty, smart, talented. What’s not to be confident about?
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I’m messed up, don’t know what I want from life and have never known, have screwed up most of my life, always make terrible decisions, can’t write fiction anymore, have lost motivation for nearly everything… sigh… I could go on. I just hate who I am, I guess. But I don’t know how to change it… and don’t have the energy or the will to do it…
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I’d love to help…but I’m not sure anyone can, but you. So, I’ll just keep on keepin’ on with the rainbows and butterflies schtick. Can’t hurt, right? 😏
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That’s the problem. I might feel good about myself at times (usually when someone tells me good things about myself because I don’t often see them on my own)… but as far as confidence goes? I’ve never had it. I don’t know how to get it. And it has to come from me, so… it’s hopeless. And when things are hopeless, I want to give up because it seems pointless to bother.
But thank you for still being here…
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You don’t have to thank me. I wish I could help. 😕
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Honestly… I wish you could, too. I don’t think anyone can help me. Even professionals don’t seem to be able to. Not entirely, anyway.
Although I do think my MH NP has helped… she increased one thing last time I saw her and I notice a difference. But… no pill is ever going to change the circumstances in my life that are slowly, torturously breaking me. Those, I suppose, are mine to fix… but many of them are beyond my control… so then what?
Sorry I keep going on and on… shutting up now!
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Don’t apologize. Talking it out has to have some benefit. Ramble on. I don’t mind. 😊
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Thanks… ♥
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Of course. 😊
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I’m self subscribed too, got to get the numbers & likes up somehow! LOL No really I did it cos I wanted to know it was working – something like that, I forget, anyhow, you don’t see the adds on your own page, thats one thing I learned, so I still don’t really know what it looks like!
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I have never ‘liked’ my own post. I have seen some people do that. I feel weird about it. lol But yes… it’s good to know how your site is working… on the site itself and also in the stupid reader. 🙂
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Yeah, I think it was the stupid reader that was troubling me – I had found that some peoples ID pic thing was showing up, and not others, so in the end, not knowing how mine worked, I subscribed to me! 😀 If the posts don’t stay top notch tho, I shall walk away from that nerd, so he better keep it up!! 😉 😀
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🙂 You are so funny!
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😀 😀 X
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I am a scientist at heart and so I am thinking about (based purely upon your own reported experience) spending a day or two sniffing strangers. There’s no question that women would seem a more enticing prospect, but I will try to be even handed in my approach.
I will report to you, from either my jail cell or hospital bed, the results of the experiment.
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I will wait with great anticipation for your report.
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I’m just wondering about the correct terminology when informing someone of their agreeable aroma. Should one be subtle about it with just a knowing nod and “hmmm …. nice ….”Or more gregarious and expressive with, “Hey, baby …. I just caught a whiff and ….. like, wow! You stink pretty!”
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I am not sure how I would react to the latter. I might still be flattered. I usually get something like, “You smell nice… what are you wearing?” And sadly, it’s usually a woman who comments and/or asks… not a man.
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Then may I let you know that, even from this distance, you are smelling sweet.
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Why thank you. How lovely of you to notice…
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I also follow my own blogs. I think WP automatically self-subcribed when I opened The Cove. I find it usefull to check if my posts really come up on the Reader.
I hope you find a blog-pace that suits you, that’s the most important thing. And I wish you didn’t compare yourself with others, we all blog our personal way, and there is no “good” or “bad” way to blog. Just ways we like and others we don’t 🙂
Take days one at a time, Gorgeous… Keep writing when your fingers itch for it, and try not to worry too much when they don’t 🙂
*Sending warm thoughts* xx
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I didn’t follow myself at first. I had to do it myself. I felt like a freak for doing it!
I don’t know why I am always trying to keep up with more frequent bloggers. But I think I’m also trying to keep up with myself… the way I used to be. But as I was discussing with a friend… blogging just doesn’t seem to be the party it used to be. Not for some, anyway. Maybe my invitation got lost in the mail… lol
I think that’s why I’m jealous of the people who can always write — never a ‘blocked’ moment… just a steady stream all the time… constantly — because I think not having that makes me feel left out of everything.
It’s probably not even related. I don’t know. I’m just bad with people… with conversation.
Thanks, as always, for being so nice to me. ♥
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Just as a thing. I have one blogger rescribe to me because wordpress starts to delete people after I think they get to 1500 followers, it doesn’t matter how much you interact they just randomly start to delete so, if you don’t post often or interact with other blogs then less people are going to notice if you have been bumped off their list
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I have seen weird things like this happen with WP before. I’ve not seen any drop in followers, though. Who knows…
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I dont think you do, but you drop off their reader,
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WP should really fix that!
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I agree, they don’t think its an issue
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I love all your posts, Sandra! 4x a week is really good! Some people I follow post like 4x or less in a whole month!
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Thanks. ♥ You’re the sweetest. I think I miss those days when I could post every day. But then… maybe this is better for me…
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As you know I am new here – but keep in mind that a blog is dynamic and will change – and should –
And if someone was in high school in junior year griping about the joy of Freshksn she sophomore year –
What would you say?
New day.
New phase
And we can never have what former phases have because people change and interests change.
I cherish a certain couple of seasons on my hoods / spring 2014 – and couple other times / I have s dreaded season or two / like coming back after too long of a break and then a on annoying commenter to boot!
But I have learned that our blogging will change and I guess what has made it easier for me is that I join challenges -‘as my interest change – so that gives me needed momentum at times –
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Thanks for your thoughts. I guess I miss some of the things about the way it used to be. But yes… things change… and I guess staying the same wouldn’t really be a good thing anyway.
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Yes – and I know what you are feeling (I think so at least)
And hope you have a nice weekend
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Thanks
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😉
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I check my blog, from time to time, on a computer that’s NOT my own, just to see if my site is readable.
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I’ve done that, too… It’s a great idea!
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I self-subscribed too! And I have been “absent” too as you know. You want to know what is funny? I have “lost” 1k (supposed) subscribers since my hiatus and I didn’t even feel bad! Which confirms what I thought – lots of robot-thingamabobs were likely following me! 🙄
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I bet I have lots of robot followers, too. I would probably feel sad if my numbers dropped, but really… those “robots” weren’t reading anyway. The numbers are really kind of meaningless, I suppose. Unless I was getting paid or something… and I most certainly am not…
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I am subscribed to both of my blog and even have an RSS feed for them too so I can read them away from WordPress. Mostly because I am my main reader and also so I can pretend I’m not me and see if I’m being ridiculous (most of the time I am).
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Oh my god, you are so funny. Maybe I am your main reader… when my lazy ass can keep up, anyway.
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I’ve been less inspired to write. I think because of the funk I’ve been in since IQ45. But even when you are writing about nothing (which you never do), you encourage me to keep blogging.
And I’m looking forward to the fucking poem. 🙂
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I think I am in the same funk for the same reason. I have no doubt that it’s affecting my writing. Then, add that to all the other life crap that brings me down and it’s just… a lot. But… I encourage you? I do? That made me smile. I don’t exactly feel uplifting lately, but I’m glad I do that for you (even though I don’t know how I’m doing it). And thanks for saying that I never write about nothing. I hope the fucking poem isn’t a disappointment as it is not literally a fucking poem. 🙂
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Can’t wait to read the poem!
I wish I had an answer for the best number of posts per week. There are weeks I end up not writing at all.
Just do what feels right for you!
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I’m not thrilled when I don’t post for a long time… but I try to think that people are going to be SO happy when I’m back that it won’t matter if the post sucks… lol
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Sounds like you’re keeping pretty busy to me. You’re posting way more than me. And I liked your poem! 🙂
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Thanks! 🙂 I’m sort of in and out here. I spend some time… and then I might be gone for a few days. This last week or so, I’ve been here a little more, though…
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Well, it’s always good to see you. xx
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Aw, thanks. You, too!
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