ink. #socs

Stream of Consciousness Saturday.
No editing is allowed… (painful for me… I usually proofread a post 20 times…)

This week, the prompt is ‘ink‘…

divider dots.

I could go in a couple of directions with this one. Maybe I won’t limit it to one…

I am still having some trouble with ink. You know… writing. I thought I was coming out of it but now I can’t clear my head. Maybe it’s the lack of peace. I’ve been moody (and sad) as hell when alone… but now that the husband and kids are home for a few days, I feel like I can’t think straight. I can’t fall into a groove… with writing. Or anything else. But… I bet that when they go back to school/work, I’ll be a mess again. Alone and lonely… bored and anxious.

What is wrong with me?

New topic.

Men with ink are sexy as hell. I have no idea why… but it’s incredibly attractive to me. I have a little. Very little. I always wanted more but I should have done it years ago. Now I feel that I should not spend the money on it… although I still want it. But really… when the hell do I spend money on myself? Almost never.

Back to men. Lately, my every thought goes back to men. Sorry. I just love them. Oh hell, I’m not sorry. I want one (or more).

Yeah, I know… I have a husband. Maybe I’m a horrible person. Actually, there’s really no doubt about that. I am a horrible person. But I need more attention and affection than I get from him. And more love. I don’t like to talk about it because I think it somehow reflects on me. Like there’s something wrong with me. Is there? I don’t know. He did grab my ass yesterday. It was kind of a shock… because lately… ugh.

Anyway… (wow, talking about that really does make me feel like there’s something wrong with me. I need to talk about something else).

It’s bothering me that I haven’t posted much lately. Damn, I really thought I was coming out of this horrible block. But I already feel stuck again. I felt better for, like, a day and a half. And of course it was during the holiday when I couldn’t write… which sucks.

I hate this post. Maybe someday I will be back… for real. Maybe not.

And one last thing… which was actually the first thing I thought of when I read the theme for this week. How could I possibly end this post without adding this song…? It’s called ‘Ink‘ by Coldplay. It’s a masterpiece. (And I’m pretty sure I’ve posted it before…)

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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16 Responses to ink. #socs

  1. I’m generally not a fan of tattoos unless they’re small or have some kind of meaning. There are too many people out there with ugly tattoos, lmao.

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  2. Marquessa says:

    Same here. I love tattoos on men (like your guy above) and on top of muscles…well, could it get better. I’ll say it again, one day at a time with the writing Sandra. There are seasons to everything.

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  3. How’s about you go grab your husband’s ass? Just a thought. Then tomorrow grab it again, and again. Pack the kids off to the cinema all expenses paid. I know, I know, extra expense. Just do it!

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  4. gigglingfattie says:

    I can’t comment on anything other than the tattoos: I love tattoos! I do have some days where I regret my hippo one…but I think I went through this phase with my others ones as well. It’s just been so long and it was so spur of the moment, but my brother is right that it suits me more than the other ones. It’s just new and weird seeing it there on my wrist…all…the…time…

    As for guys: YUM! I love my guys to have tattoos. Shockingly enough, the last two guys had no ink at all…

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  5. Hunida says:

    I like men in ink too! So sexy! And I don’t think you have a problem…we all want affection from maybe more than one man. or is it just me and you?

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