‘Couple things’ is a concept I stole from (the best) late night show… Late Night with Seth Meyers. I’ve done this once before… and since I have a few things on my mind that, of course, affect my mood, I thought it was time for another installment. (And yeah, per Seth, I get to have more than a ‘couple’ things…)
Last week, I had an appointment with my favorite nurse. You know… about all of my issues. We had a brief conversation about what’s been happening in my life and how I’m doing. Then she said something that surprised me. She says I’m doing better. I did not feel ‘better’… But what she said was that we were having a real conversation. I don’t know how to explain that but I understood what she meant. And she had a point… and I never would have seen it the way she did if she hadn’t pointed it out to me. I guess I need people to tell me when they see something good because I can never see those things on my own. I have a friend who does that for me. I must be really needy because I wish I could have that daily. Or a few times a day.
Final assessment: needy
When I tell you something that’s for your own good… and the good of others, listen to me. You know I’m right… so stop fucking ignoring me. Because I will say I told you so. I am that person.
Final assessment: annoyed… also disappointed
What happens when I want to have a supportive person in my [offline] life but I no longer want it to be the person it should be? That was a confusing question. Maybe I can clarify. After trying to get the same square peg into the same round hole for so long, I don’t want the round hole anymore. I wish I had a new hole. Preferably the square one… so the square peg fits. And all this talk of holes has changed the entire mood of this paragraph.
Final assessment: lonely… and slightly dirty
And another thing…
If your first (or close to first) comment on my blog is you asking me to check out your blog, I’m not going to check out your blog. I’m not going to approve your comment. I might even SPAM your ass. I usually check out the blog of every person who follows me. I can’t follow everyone back because I would never be able to read anyway so what’s the point? I follow back those that interest me and those with a genuine person behind them… hopefully both. But not just someone looking for followers.
Final assessment: annoyed as hell
I’m still working on this name thing. I finally thought of one I really liked. But it’s taken… even if I add ‘design’ to it. I can add ‘graphics’ to it instead, but I don’t like it as much. Here are some of the ones I’m still considering… in no particular order… well, kind of… (and all of these would be followed by ‘design’…)
tiny infinity (from a song)
three by five (from a song)
fifth wheel (third wheel was taken)
fourth cup (third cup was my first choice… taken)
…and these are still alive…
aisle five (from a song)
…and whatsandramakes is available but… I don’t think I want it
And of course, it doesn’t have to be one of these… but these are the best I’ve got right now. Although the more times I read over this list, the more I start to hate all of them. Seriously, this is just never going to happen…
Final assessment: frustrated
So… to sum up… I’m all over the place… needy, annoyed, disappointed, lonely, frustrated… and slightly dirty.
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