fiction friday 73: but it’s non-fiction.

fiction friday. a series by sandra.


When I first started blogging, I wasn’t sure what I was doing but I always knew I wanted to share some fiction. I shared a few short scenes… but it took me a while to finally publish my first ‘fiction friday’ post. (And above is the original logo I created for it.) That first post was intended to stand alone… I wasn’t going to share the whole story. That’s why the timeline in that series is confusing (that’s always bugged me). I wouldn’t have started with that scene. But I did share the rest… because it seemed like readers wanted the rest of the story… and kept wanting it.

I was flattered… and overcome with shock and surprise and amazement. I’ve always loved my own writing. (Not in an egotistical way… I don’t think. I just love writing it… and reading it… getting lost in it… and even editing it.) But I never thought others would think it was any good. I spent my entire writing-life assuming I was just writing romantic drivel (and some naughtier stuff) that would never appeal to anyone but me. It took a lot of self-convincing for me to be able to share any of it.

Seventy-two posts and over a year and a half later, here I am at number 73. But this isn’t fiction. So I guess I’m cheating.

From the very first ‘fiction friday‘ post (and before that), I’ve been afraid of making promises I couldn’t keep. I didn’t know if I’d be able to keep it going. I never thought I would have enough to post… enough stories to share… enough quality writing. I’m stunned that I’ve been doing it this long.

As I’ve mentioned recently, I’m having a bit of an inner struggle over posting fiction. I’ve also mentioned the anxiety I feel over the mere thought of publishing. These thoughts are contradictory. Do I hold back posting any fiction I may someday try to publish? But… what’s the point if I’m never going to have the courage to try to publish anyway?

The point of this post is… I think ‘fiction friday‘ might be going on a little hiatus. Wait… don’t leave! I know some of you might be here just to read fiction… but I hope you won’t disappear. I’m not even sure about this hiatus. I may be back next week. Or the week after. I haven’t figured it out yet. I do have a few writing projects floating around in notebooks and in my head. But they’re not ready for general consumption. Maybe I’ll work on those. Maybe I’ll participate in this challenge my friend Marquessa Matthews started. I wanted to… but then I became obsessed with my Christmas card designs.

As you can see… I have no idea what I’m going to do with ‘fiction friday‘. I just know that I don’t have any fiction to share today and I feel bad about that because I hate disappointing people.

Stay tuned.

 


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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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13 Responses to fiction friday 73: but it’s non-fiction.

  1. Disappoint? Not possible. You’re fun to read regardless. 😃

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  2. Marquessa says:

    You could never disappoint my friend. We are all in for your fiction and non-fiction. I too suffer from the daily post madness so I feel you. I’m weaning myself off to get down to eventually one. Publishing? You might want to take some down until you decide. Your stuff is great and could be compiled into a collection. I’m slowly taking most fiction down for that purpose. Take a fiction friday hiatus while you recharge. Friday Poetry? Friday Art to promote your crafts….hint hint! And no pressure about my #fictionfriday challenge. It’s temporary and I like seeing everyone’s take on a song…I’ll DM you later.😚

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    • This is going to sound really stupid… but I feel lonely when I don’t post. I don’t have friends offline and I guess my online friends keep me from feeling completely alone.

      I’d love to promote my art/shop every week but I feel like that’d be kind of obnoxious… I don’t know…

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      • Marquessa says:

        Hey, if it makes you feel more connected, by all means continue what you are doing. Blog about your day, a song, a stupid thing that happened that got in your last nerve…it doesn’t have to be fiction. Hell, we could start a #FrictionFriday or #FreakyFriday feature instead of #FictionFridays! We could swap stories!😉 That last stupidity of mine was to make you smile…I hope.

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  3. Um……I might have to buy 10 each of these cards???!!!!???!!! Wow! I’m beyond impressed Sandra! I’ll miss your fiction but you have so many other posts and are multi-talented so I’ll be tuning in without a doubt!

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    • You are so kind… I don’t know what to say. Thanks… ♥ I am not happy about putting fiction on hold but I just don’t have anything at the moment and I’m worried about other stuff so I can’t focus. Although I do need a distraction. Sitting in silence isn’t working for me right now…

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