[Edited to change post title. It was upsetting me too much.]
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My cousin. 45 years old.
I’ve mentioned Joey before. See Thanksgiving 2015… and Thanksgiving 2016.
He had cancer… a brain tumor that spread. After multiple surgeries, there was, eventually, nothing more that could be done. Yet when you’d see him, he’d smile and laugh and seem alright. Maybe he broke down alone or with his dad or his girlfriend. But I never saw him do it. Despite knowing he didn’t have long, I never saw him cry.
Mom called a few hours ago. Joey died this morning.
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I thought I might not be around here for a while but I’m betting I’ll be all over this place for distraction purposes, if nothing else. I certainly don’t want to sit around and think about him constantly… I’ll be a mess. (Well, messier than usual.) And I don’t want that because, you know, Joey wouldn’t have wanted it. That sweet, cute, upbeat, strong, positive guy would want everyone to remember happy times and smile. ‘Life’s too short,’ he would say. Yes, Joey… it really is.
Im sorry, Sandra. ❤
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Thank you, Eric ❤
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I am sorry for your loss 😳
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Thanks so much
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I’m so sorry for your loss, Sandra. Hubby lost another family member early this morning, so we are a little depressed and may have houseguests in a few days. And I agreed to go to a 31 party tonight – shoot me now…
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It just sucks. 😦 I’m so sorry for you and your family, too. I just found out that the “funeral not really a funeral” as my mom said (not sure what that means) is going to be on the same day as a party my daughter was invited to that she’s been looking forward to for weeks. Not sure how that’s going to go… I feel bad. 😦
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Oh, I’m sorry about the conflict. It’s hard enough when kids are involved. We’ve had a lot of sadness lately. Hubby’s brother (whose wife passed away about two months ago) was at the family reunion and we saw him several times. He is just so lost…
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And this is my uncle whose other two sons died in their teens. It sucks so much…
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Awww!! So sorry 😐.. for your.. loss too
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Thank you ♥
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Thank you. Lost my DSIL about two months ago and this morning a woman who was like a sister to hubby. Just so sad…
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It is. I hate it. 😞
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I’m sorry for your loss, Sandra. Life is short enough without an awful disease to make it shorter. ❤
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Yes, it is. Thanks, Rob. I think it’s sinking in and I’m getting to ‘mess’ territory. I may need to re-title this post… it’s kind of bothering me. Anyway, thank you.
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Sorry for your loss, Sandra. ♥
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Thank you ❤❤
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Oooh 😲.. so sad 😭.,
Joey sounds like one awesome 👏 guy…
It must have have been a joy having him apart of your lives…
they say … ” the good ones always died young..”
My sincere condolences..
Yes.. let’s celebrate joey’s life..
he would want us to be so happy 😁 for the times he had with us here..
You are so fortunate to have the opportunity to be given the chance of knowing and loving such a beautiful and happy 😊 man..
Joey!!!
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Thank you so much. He was a great guy.
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He sounds like he was..
What a great loss for you and your family
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I’m sorry for your loss.
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Thanks, Sarah ♥
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Always.
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I’m so sorry for your loss 😦
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Thank you so much
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Oh man, I’m so, so sorry. There’s never a good way to lose someone. I hate that he, his family, you, any of y’all, had to go through this. Thoughts and prayers sent all yall’s way, my dear. And, as always, use us for that distraction. We’re around. 😔😔
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Thanks, Tony. I just kinda feel like shit right now. Distraction isn’t even working… 😞 Kind of feel like I’m gonna throw up.
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Cancer fucking sucks. 😠
You know where to find me if I can help at all. 😊
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Thanks… I thought I was doing alright earlier but I just feel awful now. Can’t seem to get myself out of it. Other stuff that I’ve been worrying about lately, too… it all seems HUGE right now. I guess some of it is pretty big. Can’t figure out how to stop this… I think I feel a panic attack coming. Maybe I do need the corner and the closet and the rolling into a ball. I’m not sure.
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How are you today? Any better? Probably a stupid question, huh? I hate that feeling. Hang in there, and don’t let the corner lure you in.
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Hey. Thanks for asking. I’m not too bad so far… At night everything always feels worse. Really wish I could distract myself, though… can’t seem to get sad thoughts out of my head…
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Sorry I wasn’t around last night. I’d have been happy to talk it out with ya’. I made that post then actually just went out and walked my driveway. At that time of night I didn’t really expect anyone to be on. You’re right, that night is worst when you’re plate is overflowing. That’s when I do my best thinking though. Sometimes that actually turns out to be a good thing. 😃
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No big deal. If been trying to get to sleep earlier but that doesn’t always work out. Outside?? I’m afraid of the dark… I could never walk around outside at night! As my day goes on, I feel more anxious, but I think that’s because my kids can’t get along for more than 15 minutes at a time… If this continues, it’s going to be a looooong summer… 😐
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Yeah, mine get snippy with other more lately as well. Damn hormones! 😜
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And one of mine is a girl… sigh. 😶
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Hahaha! Yeah, that certainly changes the dynamic. 😊
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This is what I wanted… one of each. I totally asked for it!
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Careful what ya’ wish for, right? 😊
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She is adorable, though. Looks just like me. Ha! Literally, though… toddler pictures of her and me are identical…
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Well, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. 😃
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Sometimes I think that’s unfortunate for her. And for the boy, too!
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I doubt that. They are exactly what they’re supposed to be. 😊
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Now you’re just being nice. 😛
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Who? Me? 😏
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Yeah. You. 🙂
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So sad and I’m so sorry for you Sandra. ❤️ Thoughts and hugs sent your way.
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Thank you so much… it means a lot. ❤
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I’m sorry to hear this, Sandra. Sending light and warmth and hugs. Take care of yourself, and I hope you find comfort with your loved ones. ❤
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Thanks very much… I appreciate your thoughts. ❤
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💜💜💜💜
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thanks ♥
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So sorry for your loss Sandra.
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Thank you so much. ♥
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So sorry for your loss. He sounded a wonderful guy. Sending the biggest hug your way.
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Thanks for your kindness and the hug. Much appreciated.
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I’m so sorry Sandra! My deepest sympathies!
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Thanks ♥
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I’m so sorry Sandra. Sending love and deepest sympathies. I hope your memory of him will bring you comfort. ❤️❤️❤️
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Thanks… I still find it so strange… he was great last time I saw him. He was such a good guy.
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So sorry to hear about your loss. Many hugs and prayers from afar,
~Shweta
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Thanks so much
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I’m so sorry for your loss Sandra…
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Thank you so much ❤
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I’m so sorry for your loss Sandra and for your families loss. At least you know he went out as positive as he could be. I hate c#%^*r, my one BFF who has it always writes it like this, she says it takes the power away from the disease. Gives the inflicted more hope that maybe sometime we can prevent and cure this awful disease 🙏🏻💕
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Thanks so much. It totally sucks but he really did have a great attitude…
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Condolences for your loss, Sandra. Cancer is insidious, and cruel, and unfair, and a poopy-head. Joey’s positive attitude goes to show the rest of us how we should approach our challenges. At least I try to remind myself of that (not always successfully, but still). May this week be better than last (and sending a hug ❤ )
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Than you, Julie. ❤ I don’t know how he maintained such a great attitude… Amazing, if you ask me! I would certainly like to have more of that kind of attitude myself…
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I am so sorry to hear this. So young….
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It is tragic. I still can’t believe he’s really gone.
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Hugs.
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I am so sorry for your loss.
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Thank you so much.
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