it hurts.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how would you rate your pain?

Sunday morning, I woke up in pain. I don’t know the cause but I spent yesterday with horrible back pain second only to labor. I could barely move. It hurt to breathe. And it hurt to cry but it the pain was so bad it was hard to stop. Pain level: 10? 

This morning, I managed to get out of bed with less pain and tons of fear… worried that every move had the potential to bring the childbirth-level pain back. There were moments… but I had to take my daughter to school. I guess my husband could have come back after bringing my son to take her but I knew he didn’t want to have to go to work later than usual so I brought her. It went okay. Pain level: 7

I visited my chiropractor a couple of hours ago. Fortunately, his office is about 3 minutes from my house (a little closer than the school, even). I feel better. And holy crap, the adjustment was a little scary… like all my bones were wrong. But as soon as it was done, I was able to take a deep breath for the first time in over 24 hours. Pain level: 6

I wish I had no bones!

I’m still sore… and afraid I’m going to do something to fuck it up again. (I don’t know what since I have no idea what caused this in the first place…) I know the muscles need time to recover and all, but I hurt and I feel like I’m going to be cautiously moving in slow motion forever. Pain level: 5

I couldn’t use my laptop at all yesterday. It was terrible. I guess I really can’t go a day without writing… at least not without misery. Psychological pain level: 10

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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33 Responses to it hurts.

  1. magarisa says:

    I’m so sorry to hear you’re in pain, Sandra. ♥♥

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  2. I hate waking up to the mystery pain. Guess it comes with getting older, but it sure does suck. Hope your feeling better…and outta slow mo….soon. 😊

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  3. I hope you feel better!

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  4. Meg Sorick says:

    Oh boy… sorry to hear it. Even though you don’t feel like it, keep moving. It helps to eat the muscles and improve the circulation to the area. Getting older is the pits, I don’t care what anyone says. Sending love and good vibes for feeling better. xo

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    • I’m going to assume “eat the muscles” is an autocorrect fail. 😀 Ease, right? The seizing up and making it so painful to breathe scared me. At least that part is better. And yes… every year that passes sucks! And my stupid birthday is soon. 😛

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  5. I need back adjustments occasionally and they do really help. It’s such a PITA when your back hurts cause you can’t do anything without aggravating it. Sometimes I think stress causes mine cause I get tight then bend wrong, and its out. Even tho I don’t love it, I’ve found ice helps me more than heat. Feel better! xxoo

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  6. VictoryInTrouble says:

    Aww man! I’m glad you got the the chiro. I hope you feel better tonight.

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  7. Miriam says:

    Sorry to hear you’ve been in pain Sandra. Hope you’re feeling a bit better now. 💜

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  8. Back pain is nasty. Trump level nasty. I wouldn’t wish it on anybody. I’m glad the trip to the chiro helped! Hopefully it goes away in time. ❤

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  9. Awww, please take care!! hope you are fine now 🙂 ❤

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  10. Hoping you are continuing to improve. It is a scary thing, you almost are afraid to breathe. Take care. xo

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  11. Marquessa says:

    😮 hope you feel better soon!

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  12. When you said ‘it hurt to breathe’ I totally get that and peopleadvise you to keep moving when you are scared to take a breath!.Take care

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  13. MNSL says:

    So sorry


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