dear diary | z – zone #atozchallenge

Dear Diary,

I love when Ethan sleeps in my bed. Even now… when I’m awake and he’s not. I like to watch him sleep. Sitting here… leaning against the pillows while he sleeps beside me. I love watching him. Is that creepy? Hmm… maybe I’ll keep that to myself.

Last night when I thought he was asleep, I picked up my journal. I was about to open it and start writing, but he grabbed it out of my hand. Not asleep. ‘What’s this?’ He smiled because he could tell by the look on my face that I didn’t want him to take it. ‘Hey! Give me that…’ I started crawling over him to get it back but before I could reach it, he wrapped his other arm around me. I couldn’t move… and he was really curious. ‘You are blushing…! What am I holding??’ I totally lied and said it was nothing. But he knew. And he didn’t want to torture me so he smiled and gave it back… reluctantly. ‘I still want to know what’s in there…

I was quiet for a minute… but then I opened it… and handed it to him. ‘You can read a few pages. Just a few!’ I smiled and he laughed at how insistent I was. Just a few. ‘Are you sure?’ I nodded to him. He took it from me and I rested my head on his shoulder while he read.

After the fifth entry—I know it was the fifth because that was the one where I went on about his sexy whispers and cute drawings and perfect sense of humor—I took my journal from him and tossed it onto the bedside table. And I knew I was blushing again. But now, he was, too. ‘Mr. Hottie, huh?’ Oh my God. I hid my face against his chest. ‘I don’t know why I let you read that…

He made me look at him and when I did, he kissed me. ‘I love that you let me read it.’ I didn’t say anything. But he had more to say… he teased me. ‘You liked me…’ I nodded and smiled. ‘I still like you.’ He smiled, too. ‘I didn’t know… I was afraid I was stuck in the friend zone.’ I told him I had the same fear… and he seemed surprised. ‘Really? But the drawings… messing around in class… the infirmary… the library? You must have known…

But I didn’t know… not until he finally kissed me. I’m an idiot. ‘I know now…’ I kissed him. And he rolled me over onto my back and kissed me again. Then he whispered to me… because he knew how much I would love it. ‘I hope you’re not tired… I’m not ready to let you sleep…

And we didn’t sleep. Not then… not yet. I’m sure that’s why Ethan’s still asleep right now. We were up late. I’m still tired, too, but I wanted to write about last night.

And I’ll write more later… but I have to stop for now…

Ethan’s awake and he’s pulling me back to bed.

what sandra thinks

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‘Dear Diary’ is fiction based on actual events.
Any similarities to your college life is purely coincidental.
Any similarities to mine is entirely intentional.

©2018 what sandra thinks

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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62 Responses to dear diary | z – zone #atozchallenge

  1. I think you did a fantastic job with this challenge. Great job. 😃

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  2. Miriam says:

    Wonderful writing Sandra

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  3. Woot Woot the challenge is finally over and you did one awesome job!!!!! 🎉🎉

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  4. Meg says:

    Yay! Ended very nicely! I think in May you should write the downfall of Hannah! 😈

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    • Thanks!

      I don’t think I have it in me to write the Hannah thing. I can only write the sappy romantic stuff. I’m useless with anything else…

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      • Meg says:

        Ha! Well you probably need a little break anyway! The challenge is tough!

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        • I was fine with this challenge until W X Y Z. Story could have ended nicely at V…!

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          • Meg says:

            Still, your last four entries were icing on the cake!

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            • I guess.
              I do hate when something like this ends because I don’t know what to do with myself now. It’s like this was my ‘job’ for the past month. More than a month, really, because I started writing in March…

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              • Meg says:

                Maybe there’s another challenge for May or June coming up. Or what if you challenged yourself to Fiction Friday again? It’s less pressure (only once a week) and the story could end whenever you wanted it.

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                • I would like to do Fiction Friday again… but I think I need to have something already in the works… at least some sort of outline or plan. Right now, all I really have are some notes that would all be story beginnings… but nothing after that.

                  I should be one of those people who gets an outline from someone else and just does the writing part because I can never come up with interesting plots… I’m too simple and predictable… I make it too easy, I think…

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                  • Meg says:

                    You don’t have to jump right in this week. April was busy! Work on some of the stories you have started and then begin FF. In the meantime, post some older material again. You have lots of new followers that probably never saw the early stuff! And your early stuff is really good!

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                    • I guess I could post some old stuff. I’ve done it before. I just feel like that’s cheating… lol

                      I think part (most?) of my problem is that my life is so messy yet boring right now that I have little inspiration. I can come up with one scene and then… nothing.

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                    • Meg says:

                      Just write one scene then. One could lead to another … 😀

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                    • I can try. I’m not feeling good about writing at the moment. I’m too sad. I don’t think this injection is working… my back hurts… and I think I’m going to have this pain for the rest of my life. I tried to be hopeful. I really did. I still keep telling myself it might get better… but it hasn’t. Why can’t something just work for me, you know? I’m tired of my life. Usually fiction helps me escape it but it’s not strong enough… not lately.

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                    • Meg says:

                      Damn… I guess there’s still time for it to kick in though, right? I forget how long its been. But still, I can understand why you’d be worried. Ahhhhh… I wish I could help somehow!

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                    • I had it done on Friday… so it’s only day 3. The office called today to check in. They do that. The PA sounded like it was perfectly normal for me to still have pain… because it can take days to kick in. I don’t know… I’m just losing hope. 😦

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                    • Meg says:

                      Not yet! 🤞

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  5. What a great ending! I love how you let him read the journal. Sigh.

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  6. Pity there are not 40, or more, characters in the alphabet. I would happily enjoy much more of this. Well done Sandra!

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  7. OH GUSH!!!! I loved this story, Sandra. LOVE LOVE LOVED!!! Such a great story. It`s totally purple (which is apparently the new word for awesome…spread it around)

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  8. Iain Kelly says:

    Yay! Wonderful happy ending, I like that Ethan got to read what we have read through the month. Great story and style, well done on reaching the end!
    https://iainkellywriting.com/2018/04/30/z-is-for-zaragoza-spain/

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  9. Marquessa says:

    “AND SCENE!” *in my Jack voice from Will and Grace* 🙂 I loved that “you” shared the diary with him! And this line “I hope you’re not tired… I’m not ready to let you sleep…’”…now, what woman would not want to hear that from a handsome hottie?!

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  10. jrvincente says:

    Wonderful! Thank you for writing and sharing. Really excellent!

    Jayden R. Vincente
    Erotic Fiction Writer

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  11. Liam says:

    Dang!

    Congrats on completing your A To Z Challenge. I enjoyed reading your story, er, diary.

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  12. Nortina S. says:

    This was a beautiful story, Sandra. And I absolutely loved that last line. 🙂

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  13. You should write more of this series, if you want to of course. I really liked all of it and yay for the happy ending! ❤

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    • I am all about the happy ending. ♥ I’m sure it’s terribly predictable but I can’t help myself. I did enjoy writing this (until I got stuck for a few days)… but I need more plot ideas if I’m going to continue… my brain is a mess at the moment…

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  15. Exceptional job on this challenge. I absolutely loved it. I’m sad it’s over now. Thank you for this. It is so much better than watching stupid TV and gives me a break from real life and helps me escape my problems in life into Sandra’s college days. What’s next? Can’t wait!!!! Hugs!

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    • I don’t know if anything’s next. I’m amazed I was able to write this because I am so empty… I have nothing else. I know it’s disappointing… I’m sorry. I really wish I could write!

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