I wrote most of this yesterday before receiving upsetting news last night. I have yet to hear anything positive on the situation, only a list of not-great possibilities… so things seem awful and I’m scared and in a bit of a panic. Because of that, I apologize for the darkness I’ve even injected into a letter to Santa. I don’t know how much more ‘bad’ I can handle. If you’re out there Santa… please save me. Maybe this letter should be going to someone else, but I think I believe in Santa more than I believe in him.
Dear Santa,
I know I’m running out of time…
but will you come through if my wishes rhyme?
I might be on the naughty list
but I’m hoping you will still assist.
This year has been an awful mess…
too much sadness, anxiety and stress.
But somehow I made it to December…
I’m not sure how I kept it together.
You know I never ask for much…
maybe some coffee and chocolates and such.
But this year, I do have a few requests.
You’re Santa so you’ve already guessed…
I don’t want toys or jewels or a blender.
What I would really like is legal tender.
I know that’s not your usual M. O.
But I sure could use the extra dough.
If not, there’s something else you can bring.
My small house needs a new wing.
Failing that, well, hmm… let me see…
How about you make next year easy?
I’m tired of the struggle and all the bad news
Come on, Santa, this one you can’t refuse.
All I want is for things to go right…
maybe in my darkness, just a little light?
I know I’m not special or anything like that
but I’ll lay out the welcome mat.
If only you could stop the flood of badness,
maybe I could get a break from sadness.
I may not deserve your kindness
And I know this letter is very childish.
Still, I find myself counting on you
to leave me Christmas but take the blue.
love,
sandra
©2017 what sandra thinks
what sandra thinks 
Oh man. You’re killin’ me here. I sure hope Santa is listening and brings you this very thing. Of all the people I know, you could deserve something positive the most. 😕
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Thank you… your comment made me cry. Not in a bad way… and I’ve already been crying all morning so it wasn’t hard for tears to come again. I’m just not used to people thinking of me and wishing good things for me… at least not them telling me so. I don’t know… I think I’m just grateful that even though I’m sitting here alone in my pjs crying, I have someone(s)… like you… to ‘talk’ to.
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Well, you’re welcome, but I don’t feel like I help at all. While I wish I could do more, you can always have me to talk to. 😊
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I’m just legitimately concerned about whether I can handle things anymore. It already felt like too much… and now there’s more and it’s kind of big. Makes me feel like all of my usual concerns are stupid and meaningless… yet that doesn’t stop them from getting to me, too…
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Im not sure what happened from the phone call, but it doesn’t sound good. I hope it sorts itself out. In the meantime, please breathe. Some things are not your control. It sucks, but you have to accept that or you’ll slowly break yourself down if you don’t. Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat. 😕
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I know I have no control over any of this… even my own back pain issue… but I still waaaay overworry. I really don’t know what to think… but as you know, positivity is not my strong suit. It’s kind of not a ‘suit’ of mine at all. I really want to know if I’m ever going to get a break…
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Hey… I emailed you… just so you know.
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It’s a nice letter to Santa, and I’m certain he will help you by giving you at least some of what you have asked for. After all, you are very special, and I know your not on the naughty list. (Santa’s checked it twice.)
I wish you all the very best at this Yuletide.
Love and Hugs. ❤ ❤ ❤
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Thank you so much for your kind and positive thoughts. I’m having trouble finding positivity right now… although I guess I have that problem most of the time! Maybe I’d feel better if I WAS on the naughty list?!? I don’t feel special… except for being dumped on with all this bad stuff… but thank you for being so sweet. Hope you have a wonderful holiday, too. ♥
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Fess up, buddy. What happened overnight? If you don’t want to say it here, please email me – which you know you can do whenever you want. ❤
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Thank you, Rob. I emailed you. I hope you don’t regret offering that… maybe I needed to get it out in a non-public forum. Thanks ♥
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Of course I won’t regret it! I’m responding shortly. ❤
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Thank you… again… ♥
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Anytime, Sandra. ❤
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Oh no… not more bad news? I sure hope that is the last of it. You definitely deserve a break and something positive to happen. Sending love, my dear. ❤ Check your email, too.
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You are a crazy person. And a great friend. Thank you… ♥
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You are most welcome! ❤️❤️❤️
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Hey, you know there are loads of us out here sending good vibes your way, and I’ve just penned a letter to Santa to tell him to get his finger out and make sure he packs some good times for you for 2018.
Whatever the bad news is, I hope it is resolved soon.
Hugs, as always.
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Thanks… I hope so, too.
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I do hope Santa hears you. You only deserve the best Sandra! I DMed you before reading this post…will send you shout soon so we can chat.
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Thank you… Just feeling sad… trying to get my mind off things but I never can…
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I’m sorry that you got more bad news, Sandra! I hope that your wishes come true! *hugs*
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Thanks… me too! ♥
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Sorry that you got more bad news, Sandra.
I really loved your letter to Santa! I hope he grants you an easier year next year, you deserve it. ❤
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Thanks… you’re so sweet. ❤
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Sorry that you got more on your plate Sandra,
I strongly hope that Santa will make things go easier for you.. you are one of the most beautiful souls! ❤
Hugs
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Thank you so much for being so kind… and for the hugs… ❤
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Will always be there.. 🙂
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I just know Santa is listening.
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Thanks ♥♥
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What a perfectly written letter to Santa. May all your wishes come true this year!
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Thank you so much!
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