I’m sad about the absence of Fiction Friday. But… even if I was deep into another story right now, I’m not sure I would post it. I’ve already mentioned this… I have that nagging thought in my head. The one that keeps telling me that if I ever pursue publishing, I should have a story (or stories) that I haven’t already shared. BUT at the same time, I have that screaming thought in my head that publishing is too much for me anyway… and the chances I’ll actually ever pursue it are slim at best.
The drive and motivation escape me… for publishing and for everything else, too. I hate that about me. I hate it so much.
So… if/when I do have another story, maybe I will post it… maybe Fiction Friday will return. But right now, I’m still conflicted. And I still have nothing to post anyway. I found some notes I wrote… ideas, bits and pieces. But I’m just not inspired right now. Not for that.
I was beginning to feel like my designing inspiration was running away, too. But maybe it’s not. Last night I made this…Is it cute or is it goofy? I really don’t know how to judge myself or anything I do. I just assume the worst… which I know is really stupid.
And then I experimented with some other things… things I never thought I’d design…
I have no idea who my target audience is with this stuff. Nor do I know how to market myself. (Also a problem with publishing…) But the stuff is there. Maybe people will find it. And like it. And at least I’ve been inspired to create something. I still kind of think I’m a fraud… maybe it’s because I’m not a professional artist or writer… I’m not a professional anything.
Except… maybe… a professional disaster.
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You’re so hard on yourself, you’re not a professional disaster. It sounds like you need to get down and write something and get it out there. It will boost your confidence ☺️
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I guess I keep posting all these thoughts in my head because it keeps me writing even though it’s not what I want to write. Does that make sense?
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Yeah I get you and it keeps you writing. What about writing about Sandra the writing goddess that can write a novel before the kids get home and have Cake and sandwiches for tea? ☺️😜
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Hahaha… oh, you’re funny. Thank you for that laugh… I needed it!! 🙂
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It was meant might heartedly, but there’s dose of reality there too ☺️
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Ooooh! Now that’s a career I could really thrive in. Hi, I’m T, Professional Disaster, At Large. 😃
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To bad it doesn’t pay… like, at all. I’d be rich…
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Hahaha! No shit. Wouldn’t we all. 😃
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I’m really not skilled enough at anything else… you know, professionally…
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I don’t know that I really am either. 😊
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Well, you do have a job…
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True. But that doesn’t mean I’m good at it. 😃
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You can’t be that bad if you still have a job! 😛
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Hahaha. Well, I’ve been here 12 years now, so they probably think I’m just one of the residents now. 😃
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My husband says something similar about his job. He’s been there for so long, he’s like a piece of furniture. People don’t even realize he’s there. It’s not true… but that’s what it says…
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Yep. I know the feeling. But I actually kinda prefer it that way. 😃
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I was kind of like that, too… back at my old job.
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In some situations, I like to just sorta blend in. Work is one of ’em, that’s for sure. 😃
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I kind of like to just blend in in all situations…!
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😊😊
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I love the geometric designs! I say anything that keeps the creativity flowing is a good thing and far from a disaster.
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I guess… I’m just frustrated… with writing… and my life… lol 🙂 And thank you… ♥
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Love the Something fishy design.
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Thanks, Peter. 🙂
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I love the fish! I looked at your Red Bubble site, so, so cute! Everyone should check them out and order!
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Thanks so much! ❤
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the fish is definitely CUTE!!!!!!
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Thank you! 😃
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I love the goldfish. And the patterns. But definitely the goldfish. Seriously, though, those mandala style patterns (which I have no clue how to make) have such broad appeal. I also know lots of adults that enjoy coloring them. Just saying.
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Thank you. I’m not sure where the goldfish idea came from. I did a lot of ‘research’ on those patterns but I’m sure my method was not the most efficient!
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