professional disaster.

I’m sad about the absence of Fiction Friday. But… even if I was deep into another story right now, I’m not sure I would post it. I’ve already mentioned this… I have that nagging thought in my head. The one that keeps telling me that if I ever pursue publishing, I should have a story (or stories) that I haven’t already shared. BUT at the same time, I have that screaming thought in my head that publishing is too much for me anyway… and the chances I’ll actually ever pursue it are slim at best.

The drive and motivation escape me… for publishing and for everything else, too. I hate that about me. I hate it so much.

So… if/when I do have another story, maybe I will post it… maybe Fiction Friday will return. But right now, I’m still conflicted. And I still have nothing to post anyway. I found some notes I wrote… ideas, bits and pieces. But I’m just not inspired right now. Not for that.

I was beginning to feel like my designing inspiration was running away, too. But maybe it’s not. Last night I made this…Something FishyIs it cute or is it goofy? I really don’t know how to judge myself or anything I do. I just assume the worst… which I know is really stupid.

And then I experimented with some other things… things I never thought I’d design…

Mod Floral Dress  Pink Floral Scarf  Plue Flowers Leggings

I have no idea who my target audience is with this stuff. Nor do I know how to market myself. (Also a problem with publishing…) But the stuff is there. Maybe people will find it. And like it. And at least I’ve been inspired to create something. I still kind of think I’m a fraud… maybe it’s because I’m not a professional artist or writer… I’m not a professional anything.

Except… maybe… a professional disaster.

swash.
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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves music, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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30 Responses to professional disaster.

  1. Simon says:

    You’re so hard on yourself, you’re not a professional disaster. It sounds like you need to get down and write something and get it out there. It will boost your confidence ☺️

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  2. Ooooh! Now that’s a career I could really thrive in. Hi, I’m T, Professional Disaster, At Large. 😃

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  3. Meg says:

    I love the geometric designs! I say anything that keeps the creativity flowing is a good thing and far from a disaster.

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  4. Love the Something fishy design.

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  5. I love the fish! I looked at your Red Bubble site, so, so cute! Everyone should check them out and order!

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  6. the fish is definitely CUTE!!!!!!

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  7. Obol says:

    I love the goldfish. And the patterns. But definitely the goldfish. Seriously, though, those mandala style patterns (which I have no clue how to make) have such broad appeal. I also know lots of adults that enjoy coloring them. Just saying.

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