I’m sad about the absence of Fiction Friday. But… even if I was deep into another story right now, I’m not sure I would post it. I’ve already mentioned this… I have that nagging thought in my head. The one that keeps telling me that if I ever pursue publishing, I should have a story (or stories) that I haven’t already shared. BUT at the same time, I have that screaming thought in my head that publishing is too much for me anyway… and the chances I’ll actually ever pursue it are slim at best.
The drive and motivation escape me… for publishing and for everything else, too. I hate that about me. I hate it so much.
So… if/when I do have another story, maybe I will post it… maybe Fiction Friday will return. But right now, I’m still conflicted. And I still have nothing to post anyway. I found some notes I wrote… ideas, bits and pieces. But I’m just not inspired right now. Not for that.
I was beginning to feel like my designing inspiration was running away, too. But maybe it’s not. Last night I made this…Is it cute or is it goofy? I really don’t know how to judge myself or anything I do. I just assume the worst… which I know is really stupid.
And then I experimented with some other things… things I never thought I’d design…
I have no idea who my target audience is with this stuff. Nor do I know how to market myself. (Also a problem with publishing…) But the stuff is there. Maybe people will find it. And like it. And at least I’ve been inspired to create something. I still kind of think I’m a fraud… maybe it’s because I’m not a professional artist or writer… I’m not a professional anything.
Except… maybe… a professional disaster.
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