I can’t.

I was starting to get my writing groove back. It was good. And now…

I have no words.

Fuck that, yes I do.

I have held it in for months. Fuck it. If this sends followers away, well, I doubt you liked it here anyway.

WTF? Seriously. What. The. Fuck. It pains me to know THAT many Americans support a racist, homophobic, misogynistic, xenophobic, lady-part grabbing, unhinged, unqualified asshat.

Hills was not my first choice… but she was none of that ⇑.

• • •

Bernie would’ve won.


At least it’s now legal for me to get high enough to forget this ever happened.


I considered disabling comments on this post but I want to have more faith in humanity than that. I reserve the right to moderate as I see fit. I will not tolerate hate, so uh… don’t piss me off. I am in no mood……


About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy, too. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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68 Responses to I can’t.

  1. Simon says:

    I feel and share those sentiments all the way across the pond!

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  2. Halycon Prana says:

    I know it is a messed up situation, but try not to let the political negativity bleed into your life. Remember there is very little we can do about these things (depending on the country) and know that these things do not by any means reflect the quality of the hearts of the populous.

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    • This guy is just scary. If he’s having a bad day and decides to bomb some country, they’ll retaliate and we’re done. For my kids to see a person like this elected president… how do I teach them that the world hasn’t gone mad? It’s painful!

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      • Halycon Prana says:

        Fortunately he doesn’t have that much power. If bad things are going to happen, they will happen regardless. Educating your children with your heart as you always have. The stronger, more loving and emotionally and educationally educated you are, there more they will be. I’m not trying to undermine your right to being shocked, outraged, scared or hurt by the recent political outcome. I’m just trying to say that you cannot control the actions of others, only yourself. If you are a force of light in times of darkness, simply put you energy into turning up your brightness.

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  3. It’s said that Good will prevail over Evil, but I’m beginning to doubt that! There aren’t enough deserted islands in the world, with a water supply, for all of us so I suppose we have to buckle down for the ride and hope we come out OK. Hugs to you, because they always make us feel better!

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  4. chungwipff says:

    I just read this quote and it talked me off the ledge:

    “I think the future of our country is about each one of us, not one person in charge.”

    JOSE UMANA, a 49-year-old airline pilot in Coral Gables, Fla.

    So, we can and still SHOULD do everything we each can for what we believe in. I have to go to work today and face 90 students who will talk about it. Most will rejoice (I live in a very Conservative area). One student told me several weeks ago, “My dad says he hopes someone will assassinate Trump and Pence will be our President.” Let’s hope the hate dies down and we heal soon.

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    • Thanks very much for sharing. I hope the hate dies down, too… but it’s not easy knowing that the biggest hater of all was just elected. (And I am thankful that I do not live in a conservative area… I don’t think I could take it!) Thanks again for your thoughts.


  5. Can’t believe it either. Embarrassing, I’m ashamed of my country. Sad day in history. 😔

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  6. Meg Sorick says:

    I am not sure I can get out of bed today.

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  7. stephieann8 says:

    I had to drag my ass to work today I am so depressed and scared as hell. I am trying to cope and find a way I can turn my mood around but I am having massive amounts of trouble. I cannot believe how much hate there is in America that they voted in this monster. I am sad. I am disappointed. I am fearful. I am lost. I am numb. I went to bed early last night thinking there is no way hate will win and I woke up wrong. This has to be kind of test.

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  8. gigglingfattie says:

    I think the entire world is having an “I just can’t even” day today.

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  9. I’ve had the same emotions over the past 24 hours. My initial reaction was anger. I thought mean things about his supporters, and imagined what I would say to my family members who voted for him. Then I moved on to sadness and didn’t want to go to work, didn’t want to care about anything. What a sad day. Living in a red state feels particularly isolating today.

    But I’m trying to keep in mind that giving up is not the answer. Continuing to go out and do good things and help each other – those things do matter. Raising children to be kind and decent people matters too.

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    • I’m still having a mix of these emotions. And I do still not have the best thoughts about his supporters. I haven’t been able to understand how anyone could support him the entire time. I also saw some interesting statistics regarding his supporters vs. hers (that I will refrain from sharing here). I hope to hell this doesn’t come up at all at Thanksgiving dinner. I am still horrified, embarrassed, and afraid for my children and everyone I care about… and this country. I am thankful that I live in a blue state… but still. I cried kind of a lot… not sure it won’t happen again.

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      • I’ve been back and forth too. Watching her concession speech definitely made me teary. I’m actually really grateful that I’m going to a friend’s Thanksgiving this year, because I too can not imagine having to face them in a few weeks. When things settle down and I feel less sensitive, I do want to ask my family members why they did this, because I’m genuinely perplexed.

        I read a huff po article today that has stuck with me – a lot of his supporters don’t agree with the things he has said, but they feel disenfranchised and “socially left behind” by the more united, forward-thinking liberals. This was their way of getting power back. That helped me understand them a little better, which in turn makes me feel a TINY bit better.

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        • As far as Thanksgiving goes… I’m not worried that anyone in my family (at least my immediate family) voted for him (can’t bear to type the name). They didn’t. More concerned my extended family could possibly have and wouldn’t be shy about bringing it up. Should that happen, I am going to have to make sure I’ve arranged in advance for someone to get me out of the room because otherwise, I will make a 30 minute speech…

          Also… I could not watch the concession speech. Last night, I got bits of info from google. I couldn’t watch tv. I had it on a marathon of The Simpsons followed by a marathon of Archer. No ticker at the bottom… no news breaks. Nothing… just animation all night.

          I have heard that people wanted a change and felt ignored… blah blah… but you know, people also wanted a change and voted for Obama. I bet some of those very same people now hate Obama and they want a change. You know what? I doubt anything will improve for these people because he lied to them — they are far from his priority (ahem rich white men).

          Clearly, I’m not past angry. 🙂

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  10. Laura says:

    I agree with you. I don’t have a political blog, and don’t want to have a political blog, so I don’t say anything there. But I am saddened about the world our children are inheriting, where racism and sexism and hatred apparently aren’t just acceptable but are winning positions, where greed and self-interest are the winning values.

    I know the country will survive. But I don’t like what the majority of it looks like today. “When people tell you who they are, you’d best believe it.”

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  11. Oh I hear you on avoiding tv. A week ago, I started limiting my use of social media because all the info was making me so anxious and upset. I had a horrible, sinking feeling that he was going to win, but I was trying to stay hopeful. I couldn’t watch any of the coverage last night either. I don’t think I can stand to watch the news or get on FB anytime soon. I keep having moments of, “wait – really? This is really happening?”

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    • I avoid FB anyway. I hate that place… and there’s no way I could go there now. It would push me over the edge for sure. I wasn’t too bad about seeing the news until last night… when I avoided it… and today I only wanted to watch channels that don’t have news at all… like Cartoon Network.

      Oh, and you know, that whole FBI thing that happened… that was illegal and probably caused (or at least helped cause) Hillary’s loss. But for some reason, that’s okay? WTF. It’s like, a mistrial. Let’s try again.

      And I have the same moments of disbelief… or is it denial?

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      • Yeah, I was feeling like she had a really good chance until the FBI shit came out again. As soon as I saw it, I had a gut feeling it was going to go bad. I’m really wondering what would happen if Trump is convicted of any of his charges and sent to prison. I highly doubt it’ll happen (because rich white man), but if it did – would Pence then become president, even if it happened pre-inauguration? I’m curious how that’d be worked out.

        Probably a mix of denial and disbelief! Last night, I felt eerily calm about the whole thing, and was texting my panicking friends that it’ll all be okay. Then I woke up at 2 am, saw who’d won, and immediately got angry. I now know that my calm was just straight up denial 🙂

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        • It just really REALLY angers me that the FBI (or anyone) releasing something that could impact the election this close to it — it’s illegal. But that’s just being ignored? Clearly it affected the results (and I feel certain a-hole had something to do with that). If something like this happened in, say, a court case, there would be a mistrial. But that doesn’t apply to a little thing like a presidential election? Really??

          I’ve been hoping like hell that something illegal that he’s done will come back and bite him and cause him to lose the job. (But like you said… rich white asshat.) I prefer a Democrat, yes, but Pence is better. ANYONE is better.

          Part of me still can’t believe this is happening. I watched the news tonight because I saw a clip of protesters and I wanted to see that. I wish it would change something… but I’m sure it won’t. But it should. Because I said so. And because it would be right. Because this is all a bunch of BS.

          Guess what? It’s rigged! UGH.

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          • I know, we’re all just feeling so disenchanted with it all. I’ve heard she won the popular vote, which makes me feel both better and worse at the same time. I hate the electoral college, but even if the majority of citizens wanted to do away with it, I think it’d still be kept around, just because “it’s the way it’s always been done.” Ugh.

            When you’re ready for it, do watch her concession speech. I avoided it because I didn’t want to see her look defeated, but she’s fucking Hillary Clinton haha. She’s dignified and gracious, and makes you feel more hopeful.

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            • I saw a piece of her speech on the news tonight… complete with people crying as they watched/listened. I heard about the popular vote, too. I know what you mean — better and worse. Hell, at least if the electoral votes were split according to the actual votes — not whole states — that might be more accurate? I don’t know. I should make a spreadsheet and figure it out. For no reason… I mean, really, what am I going to do? Send my findings to Obama or something? Hell… like him or not (I like him), people are going to SO miss him.

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  12. I’m still stunned that this actually happened. (I guess that’s what we get when only half of the country votes.)

    But you know what? America is better than this…and now’s our chance to prove it. All I can do is be one of the good things about this country, and maybe that’ll rub off on others.

    I have faith in this country and I DO think we will all be OK. Don’t let this take you out at the knees. Be awesome and be kind. The rest will fall in step. It has to.

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    • I was pretty damn angry all over again when I found out about voter turnout. I get that lots of people didn’t like either candidate, but come on… at the very least they should have done their part to save us from this. I certainly how we’ll be okay… but as far add faith in this country? I’m going to have to get back to you…

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  13. I am still fucking numb and stunned about this. I was not happy to vote. Did not like my choices but I chose the lesser of the two evils as far as I was concerned. Someone I knew would represent us as qualified and capable and statesman-like. It astounds me how anyone could think HE is what we should show the world as our choice. I realise that people make choices based on their fears and their needs but it really beggars belief. And the backlash against those who didn’t vote for him…as though we should be dancing a jig when we know that 1) Trump wouldn’t have accepted defeat nor would his followers and 2) they would be all over the media claiming it was rigged and launching their own protests. I was called a petulant sore loser at 2:30am on 11/9 because I DARED on my own twitter to say that I was concerned about the Supreme Court Justice seats. And THAT comment came from a miscreant from South Africa. Home of Apartheid. Enough said. I support your feelings and have been considering posting something of my own. I am tired of the lack of graciousness on the part of his supporters. There needs to be inclusion and there is none. I am frightened for my children. And they are frightened too.

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    • Honestly, I liked Hillary more when she called out Trump supporters… Yeah, it made people like her less, maybe, but I was damn sick of that asshat being excused for being so awful, yet she was attacked for every single thing she said…. every single move she made. Major double standard. All of his wrongdoings (millions) were just skimmed over, forgotten, forgiven, dismissed. Yet hers were scrutinized. In comparison, come on… she wins.

      A sore loser — please! That asshat claimed things were rigged every single time things didn’t look good for him. Pretty much the definition of sore loser. I know it’s wrong, but I have a very hard time not passing judgement on his supporters. And you know… they’re in for a rude awakening. He doesn’t care about them. He used them to get the job. Now he’s going to serve himself and his rich-white-men club.

      I think it’s awful that even our children are afraid. When I was their age, I didn’t even think about this stuff. Now, it’s something they worry about! In 3rd + 6th grade! It’s sad.

      And no one will bother you for stating your thoughts or concerns here. I won’t allow it. 🙂

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