deep enough.

window girl.

It felt good that day
Talking and smiling
Laughter.
Maybe that is happy
Is that happy?
It doesn’t feel deep enough
To be real
No need to think
Stop analyzing
Just enjoy…
Oh.
Darkness inside me
Creeping around slowly
My parasite
Waiting, ready
Always ready
Gatekeeper to my soul
Snatching, sucking, inhaling
Anything lighter
Than blackness
That dares enter
Maybe that is happy
For the plague inside me.
It feels deep enough
To be real

swish.

© what sandra thinks
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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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20 Responses to deep enough.

  1. magarisa says:

    Darkly beautiful. I know that parasite well…

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  2. Al Lane says:

    The darkness and analysis… I know those feelings too well. The plague looses it’s grip in the end x

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  3. mandibelle16 says:

    Light always overcomes darkness. And that is the truth for anything. Feel better.

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  4. Meg Sorick says:

    I know the feeling. Overthinking everything. Oddly enough, it’s common in my current profession and my former once as well. Arriving at a diagnosis requires sifting through a lot of information, test results, exam findings, etc. With particularly acute cases, you find yourself questioning everything… It’s nearly impossible to not carry that over into other facets of your life.

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    • Yeah, I’m the queen of overthinking… lol. I’ve been that way as long as I can remember. And of course, overthinking really REALLY does not go well with paranoia… or lack of positivity. I’ve got the trifecta… lol

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  5. Miriam says:

    Don’t you let that parasite take over. I’ve been in that blackness but we can always pull ourselves out. Take care my friend …

    Liked by 1 person

  6. Marquessa says:

    Take good care of yourself. Hugs.

    Liked by 1 person

  7. I feel for you! For me, it’s always questioning whether I’m good enough at anything to be worthy of whatever, love, attention, etc. and even when I know intellectually that I am, emotionally I always question. Work in progress, I guess we all are! ❤

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  8. Fia Loebis says:

    in love this writing!

    Liked by 1 person

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