My life’s predominant theme right now seems to be uncertainty. From major decisions [what kind of job do I want?] to minor ones [what shall I cook for dinner tonight?], I never seem to have the answers.
I dislike change – unless it’s a good change. Then I’m on board. Oh, I know you need the bad with the good or the good doesn’t seem so… good. But, dammit, it seems most of the change in my life recently has been bad. Trust me, powers-that-be, I will recognize the good and appreciate it enthusiastically! I promise!
In accordance with my recent life-theme [yes, I just make up words], I don’t know where this blog is going. Hell, I’m not even clear on my goals. [Oh man, I am not a goal-setter.] But despite my aimlessness and indecisiveness, my doubts and hesitation, as of today, I own whatsandrathinks.com. [FYI: I am warned it may be unreliable for up to 72 hours, but it is live for me.] I don’t know what made today the day. I guess I was in a leaping mood.
My unemployment [and therefore financial status] is somewhat limiting, so it is entirely possible that I have lost my mind incurring any expense, no matter how small. But this was a good change, I think. And I even made it all by myself!
The other piece of this is my decision to make whatsandrathinks an ‘award free’ blog.
Admit it – you’re sick of seeing how many different ways I can say how thankful I am to all of you for reading and enjoying my blog enough to honor me with awards. While I do truly appreciate the support and generosity, I would like to graciously leave those encouraging, motivational awards to new[er] bloggers.
Because I’m thoughtful beyond words, I’ll offer an alternative. Instead, I hope you’ll like and share and comment and reblog. [Doesn’t the world need to know ‘what sandra thinks’? Okay, ‘need’ may be a strong word…] And if you want to know 7 things about me, you need only ask. I’m an open book. Especially since I’m [mostly] anonymous.
I want to focus on my writing [of all kinds]. I do, however, need to share my time with my dreadful job search, to which I have committed a specific number of hours per week to preserve sanity and reduce guilt. Because, my God, I have been feeling incredibly guilty for every moment of not-job-searching. Even my fun wasn’t fun.
Of course, I will continue to be an annoying show-off whenever I earn a writing ‘prize’ – big or small [even if it’s for only 6 words]. And if you’re interested in hosting a ‘guest post’ on your blog, I would happily write one. On a topic of your choosing… or mine. Please drop me a note if you’d like to work something out.
I made a special little thank you… especially for you. Thanks for being here, for reading, and for recognizing me generously over the past four months.
Now, I must go. I have to finish my fiction friday post for tomorrow lest one of you kick my ass.