hidden inside.


hidden inside.

Smiling, no matter how I feel
A script of joy, my guide
No one can know the real story
I keep it all inside

It makes me tired, sometimes weak
Emotions cast aside
It’s not okay to be this way
I keep it all inside

I must try to be someone else
Play my role, truth denied
Acting skills are now perfected
I keep it all inside

I wonder if I will ever
Be free, my ropes untied
Cannot imagine being true
I keep it all inside

Maybe not for them, but for me
Wholly undignified
But not alone if I pretend
I keep it all inside

I am human, not perfection
I should not have to hide
But fake is easier than real
I keep it all inside

Weary from searching for someone
In whom I can confide
At times, I even feel hope but
I keep it all inside

And if I find real happiness
True and false will collide
That is why, whether up or down,
I keep it all inside

[Day 9 prompt: Camouflage.]
~Writing 101 | Poetry | day 9

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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11 Responses to hidden inside.

  1. Annie says:

    Hmmm, I’m hearing you. I wondered how many posts would be similar to my own. Seems like quite a few of us are struggling with this one xx

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  2. Interesting that you repeat the line “I keep it all inside”

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  3. So profound “I am human, not perfection
    I should not have to hide
    But fake is easier than real
    I keep it all inside”

    I am right there with you on this one. Being fake is sometimes easier than real.

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  4. Good gracious! There is so much keeping inside going on here. I think that a lot of us can relate a bit to this because we tend to keep it inside and we are certainly all human.

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  5. moonskittles says:

    Unfortunately many times people decide not to choose the road less traveled by.


  6. simpledimple says:

    This is well on point. It resonates with me and I believe, with so many other people because there is just so much we tend to keep inside. 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  7. izabolinha says:

    Good ! And you are writing so beautifully what so many of us can’t put out in words 😉
    Turtle Hugs 🙂

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  8. Our culture is not always safe and many of us have learned this skill of keeping it all in very early. The trick is to know when that skill is no longer necessary. I haven’t figured that out yet but it’s comforting to know I’m not alone. Beautifully written!

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  9. stephieann8 says:

    Another gem! I love your writing 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  10. beingmepresently says:

    Great poem. I can really relate to this. I think we all hide little things about ourselves but the problems come when it’s a lot of things. That’s why writing and blogging is so useful. X

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