letters | j/j*** #atozchallenge

Posted on 11 April 2020 by what sandra thinks

letters | a to z | what sandra thinks

Dear J***,

I remember why I used your name in the first story I ever wrote, and now, so many years later, I still can’t let you go.

I know I shouldn’t use you in every story I write. Maybe it makes all of my leading men too similar. I don’t think it does, but even if it did, I don’t think I care. I can’t stop with you.

I think I’ve developed an unhealthy obsession. But is it really unhealthy if you, imaginary guy, make me happy?

And, damn, those abs… and that sexy hair… and those strong arms… *sigh*

I seriously love you.

p.s. — Those asterisks are random. I’m not giving anything away… not even the number of letters in his name. I just can’t tell anyone. It’s too close to my heart… and I want to keep it for myself and myself alone. I’m sure this makes me weird, but he’s just… mine. Every story I’ve ever published on this blog has had name changes because I can’t share him. Hmm… maybe I am too attached. Eh… I don’t care. He’s the real (although not real) love of my life.

p.p.s. — That picture is one of many I’ve collected that resemble my imaginary man. 

p.p.p.s. — The more I write in this post, the more insane I sound. Just letting you know that I do realize this.

 

         
©2020 what sandra thinks

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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19 Responses to letters | j/j*** #atozchallenge

  1. Outside Perception says:
    11 April 2020 at 11:04 am

    Nothing wrong with keeping him all to yourself. I have a similar thing I keep to myself 🙂

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  2. Scotty’s Keep says:
    11 April 2020 at 2:06 pm

    Excellent. You sparked my interest. Maybe you recall the attorney tv series with Raymond Burr. The author truly in love with Burr’s secretary. So aren’t alone. Never have been.

    Press on.

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    • what sandra thinks says:
      11 April 2020 at 5:44 pm

      I don’t remember that, but it’s good to know I’m not alone. Sometimes, I think my obsession with this imaginary man is out of hand. I’ve found myself lying in bed at night feeling very sad that he will never show up at my doorstep.

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  3. M says:
    11 April 2020 at 4:05 pm

    Now, all I’m thinking about is a full frontal…uh…face close-up…😋

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  4. Peter's pondering says:
    11 April 2020 at 4:57 pm

    Keep the dream alive. He may turn up to take you away!

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  5. jrvincente says:
    11 April 2020 at 8:30 pm

    You don’t sound crazy at all! I totally get it.

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  6. lennonliberated says:
    13 April 2020 at 9:18 am

    He seems mysterious and alluring…..*sigh* you just keep writing about him….Although you don’t share his name, I love that you share him, period.

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