the dreaded birthday. (plus #music)

Posted on 10 June 2018 by what sandra thinks

Tomorrow is my stupid birthday. I’m writing about it mostly because I have nothing else to write about. And maybe tomorrow I’ll write about it again just to recount my ‘special‘ day.

Ugh.

Getting older sucks. I used to say I’d like to go back to 13 and fix things. But really, I think it’d be even better to go back to about 6 and stay there forever.

My childhood was good. Really good. I didn’t have responsibilities or stress. But also, times were just different. Life was different. Being a kid back then was so much better than it is now. I don’t want to give away my age or anything (yeah, 29 is a lie… sorry), but times were different… simpler… safer. Less technology, less constant bad news, less badness in general. Things haven’t gotten better with time. They’ve gotten worse. Much worse.

I was told, when I get older, all my fears would shrink
But now I’m insecure, and I care what people think

I try to keep being a dreamer, but it’s a lot harder now. There’s too much out there screaming at me to be a grown-up… which totally gets in the way of my dreams. As does reality. Like age and shit. It’s no fun anymore. It’s too bad I didn’t know how great I had it back then… because damn, would I ever enjoy it now!

Used to dream of outer space, but now they’re laughin’ at our face
Singin’, “wake up, you need to make money!” Yeah

So… happy birthday to me. But I already know the best thing that’s going to happen tomorrow is cheesecake. Come to think of it, that’s the best thing that can happen to any day. But let’s not forget the massive lottery win… the ultimate gift (aside from true love). See? I still dream. Sigh.

Wish we could turn back time
To the good old days
When our momma sang us to sleep but
Now we’re stressed out

Obviously I am not the owner of any rights to this song, video, or lyrics… just everything else…

©2018 what sandra thinks

         

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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46 Responses to the dreaded birthday. (plus #music)

  1. Lana Cole says:
    10 June 2018 at 4:48 pm

    Happy early birthday! 🎂

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  2. Tony Burgess says:
    10 June 2018 at 4:59 pm

    Happy early birthday. It’s good to smell daisies instead of pushing them up.

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  3. ghostmmnc says:
    10 June 2018 at 5:31 pm

    Things were so much nicer and simpler back in my early days, too. If we only knew! Anyway, enjoy your cheesecake, and I’ll wish you a Happy Birthday! 🙂

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  4. Meg says:
    10 June 2018 at 5:32 pm

    Oh that song is the best. It spells it all out perfectly. I did not have a great childhood, but I’d go back to 5 or 6 and try again anyway. But only if I had foreknowledge of all the things I’d screw up. Ugh. I hope you have a happy day, sweetie! 😘

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  5. waywardsparkles says:
    10 June 2018 at 5:42 pm

    Happy Birthday Week! Hope you get a few good surprises out of the deal. At least cheesecake’s always good!
    Mona

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  6. Lennon Carlyle says:
    10 June 2018 at 5:47 pm

    Awe……your special day is tomorrow! You’re very special to me. I adore you and am so thrilled to call you my friend. I’m going to try hard to be a better friend. I’ve just been in a deep rut lately. 😘

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  8. angelicaempleo says:
    10 June 2018 at 10:42 pm

    Happy early Birthday!

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  9. jacquelineobyikocha says:
    10 June 2018 at 11:25 pm

    Happy birthday Sandra. I totally feel you and there are days that I silently hum ‘wish we could turn back time’ in my head. I didn’t know that I had it good till I became an adult and adulting is hard.

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  10. juliasjournaluk says:
    11 June 2018 at 7:28 am

    I agree, birthdays are stupid and not special, so why do people insist on celebrating them? I’m dreading hitting 50 in 4 years time (or thereabouts). I rather not be reminded that I’m getting older!

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  11. BeckiesMentalMess.wordpress.com says:
    11 June 2018 at 11:28 am

    Happy Birthday Sandra!!!! I know how you feel. I couldn’t wait for my birthday to end, yesterday. If it weren’t for Mel Gutier’s message, I probably would have stayed in bed all day. A few friends came by for cake, but for the most part I still just wanted to stay in bed.
    I do truly hope you have a wonderful birthday though! Many warm wishes for the new year ahead of you! 🙂

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  12. iScriblr says:
    11 June 2018 at 2:11 pm

    Happy birthday!❤

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  13. ladieswholunchreviews says:
    11 June 2018 at 3:32 pm

    Ooh, cheesecake! A reason to celebrate right there! Hope you have a birthday that doesn’t totally suck. Bet you have a card for that! Enjoy dessert ❤

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  14. Richmond Road says:
    11 June 2018 at 9:39 pm

    Happy birthday.

    I’d like to be in a position to tell you that at some mysterious point in time, on some distant birthday, that things get better, but the evidence is mounting up to suggest the contrary.

    As I think we may have discussed, I too would like to go back to 13. But I think I would just go through the process of messing things up again. But probably enjoy that process to some degree, nonetheless.

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    • what sandra thinks says:
      11 June 2018 at 11:14 pm

      Thank you for the birthday wishes. I think that after a certain age… and maybe not the same age for everyone… birthdays become anything but happy.

      Unfortunately, going back to 13 would only improve things if I could take my current knowledge with me. Otherwise, I would probably repeat all of my mistakes. But being that age again would be priceless anyway…

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  15. supernaturalsnark says:
    25 June 2018 at 9:44 pm

    Happy Belated Birthday!! xo

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