song of the day. #58 #music | song lyric sunday

song of the day.

This week’s theme for Song Lyric Sunday is devil/demon.

That works out.

If you read my blog regularly… or have been reading for the past week especially, you know that I’m in a bad place. And I don’t mean my stupid house in my stupid town. I mean the stupid place in my stupid head. It feels sad and scary. It feels overwhelming and completely out of my control.

I often think my demons are who I am. I’m not sure there’s anything else. And there’s definitely no running from them… they are always there… screaming at me… tearing me down…

Do my crying underwater
I can’t get down any farther
All my drowning friends can see
Now there is no running from it
It’s become the crux of me
I wish that I could rise above it
… But I stay down
With my demons

I talk to myself… tell myself it’s not that bad. Sometimes, I even believe it. For a minute or two. Sometimes the start is at night… I’m okay when I go to sleep… but then I wake up and just as the sun should brighten things, it goes dark.

Oh, everyday I start so great
Then the sunlight dims
The less I look
The more I see the pythons in the limbs
Do not know what’s wrong with me
The sour is in the cut
When I walk into a room
I do not light it up
Fuck
…But I stay down
With my demons

My interpretation of this song is totally based on myself. I’m sure that was not intended as no members of The National know me personally. But it fits… maybe a little too well.

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Demons | The National

When I think of you in the city
The sight of you among the sites
I get this sudden sinking feeling
Of a man about to fly
Never kept me up before
Now I’ve been awake for days
I can’t fight it anymore
I’m going through an awkward phase
I am secretly in love with
Everyone that I grew up with
Do my crying underwater
I can’t get down any farther
All my drowning friends can see
Now there is no running from it
It’s become the crux of me
I wish that I could rise above it

But I stay down
With my demons
But I stay down
With my demons

Buts and buzzards in the sky
Alligators in the sewers
I don’t even wonder why
Hide among the younger viewers
Huddle with them all night long
The worried talk to God goes on
I sincerely tried to love it
Wish that I could rise above it

But I stay down
With my demons
But I stay down
With my demons

Can I stay here? I can sleep, on the floor
Paint the blood and hang the palms, on the door
Do not think I’m going places anymore
Wanna see the sun come up above New York
Oh, everyday I start so great
Then the sunlight dims
The less I look
The more I see the pythons in the limbs
Do not know what’s wrong with me
The sour is in the cut
When I walk into a room
I do not light it up
Fuck

But I stay down
With my demons
But I stay down
With my demons

[Written by Matt Berninger and Aaron Dessner | The National]

song of the day

song of the day

Obviously I am not the owner of any rights to this song, video, or lyrics… just everything else… ©2018 what sandra thinks

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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7 Responses to song of the day. #58 #music | song lyric sunday

  1. J-Dub says:

    First time I have heard this song. Thank you for sharing.

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  2. I’ve never heard it, or of them, before, but I really enjoyed it. Very reminiscent of Leonard Cohen I thought. I can see why you chose this Sandra, and why it is just perfect for how you’ve been feeling lately. Hugs to you, and thank you for the introduction to new music.

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  3. I can totally empathize with you. I get in my head and it’s hard to get out of that place. I hope you see the light soon and don’t stay there with your demons. This song is dark and very fitting for that place I assume you’re in. It is new to me, but I really enjoyed it. Thanks so much for sharing!

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