Jules called me in a panic this afternoon.
The worst possible thing has happened. Okay, fine, I’m being a little dramatic. Or maybe I’m not. This is a nightmare! But really… who am I kidding? I knew it was just a matter of time…
Hannah saw me walking out of the science building with Ethan this morning. I didn’t see her but she must have gotten a really good look at Ethan because she asked Jules all kinds of questions about him. ‘Who is that guy she was with? Has she talked about him? She has to introduce me…’
Jules pretended she had no idea who Hannah was talking about. Because Jules is the best friend ever.
I don’t want Hannah to ruin this for me. I don’t even want her to have a chance to try. I think Ethan might really like me. But she’s going to fuck everything up. What the hell am I supposed to do? Hurry up and get him before she gets to him? I’m too damn shy. I don’t rush things. If it’s going to happen, I want it to happen naturally. I don’t want to force it.
No. Hannah is the one who forces things. God. This sucks.
Maybe I should have kissed Ethan at the library. Maybe I should have done something. But that’s not me. It’s Hannah. And now she’s going to do whatever it takes to get him no matter what I do… what I say… how I feel. She doesn’t care. And I can’t stop her. And then… it’ll be too late for me.
Or… it won’t be…
Because maybe he won’t be taken in. Maybe he won’t fall for her act.
He’s too smart for that… isn’t he?
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‘Dear Diary’ is fiction based on actual events.
Any similarities to your college life is purely coincidental.
Any similarities to mine is entirely intentional.
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