I can’t stand being around Hannah any more. I just can’t.
When I met her and Jules freshman year, she was different. Or maybe she wasn’t and I just hadn’t seen the real Hannah yet…
She has always been more outgoing than Jules and I. She kind of helped us meet people. But sometimes she acted like she was doing us a favor by being our friend. I guess we let that slide because she really was nice to us. But then it started with the boys. All the boys.
She is just… ugh.
Confidence is good… but my God, she is so full of herself! Do people really like that? How can they? It’s so fucking obnoxious. And annoying. Maybe they’re drawn to her because she puts herself out there and seems so self-assured. But she makes everything about her. And it never ends… or even takes a break. She’s always on. It’s like she’s not human. Like she has no flaws. It must be fucking exhausting.
I used to think she was more like Jules and me. We don’t try to cover up our imperfections… because they make us who we are. Isn’t that how normal people are? Maybe I’m crazy, but I think a touch of insecurity is healthy. And I’m betting Hannah has more than a touch… but she hides it from everyone. I guess by sleeping around. Slut.
Jules and I have stopped telling her when we’re into a guy… because Hannah doesn’t care who she hurts. Not even her friends. Hell, when she knows one of us is interested in someone, she goes into overdrive. The opposite of what a friend would do. She’s done it to Jules. She’s done it to me. God, we barely have any male friends because as soon as we meet anyone, Hannah preys on him before we even get a chance to know the guy. And then it’s just… awkward.
Randy has been an exception… so far. But if Hannah finds out Jules is into in him, things could get messy.
And Ethan… she can’t have him.
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Any similarities to mine is entirely intentional.
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