dear diary | h – hannah #atozchallenge

Dear Diary,

I can’t stand being around Hannah any more. I just can’t.

When I met her and Jules freshman year, she was different. Or maybe she wasn’t and I just hadn’t seen the real Hannah yet…

She has always been more outgoing than Jules and I. She kind of helped us meet people. But sometimes she acted like she was doing us a favor by being our friend. I guess we let that slide because she really was nice to us. But then it started with the boys. All the boys.

She is just… ugh.

Confidence is good… but my God, she is so full of herself! Do people really like that? How can they? It’s so fucking obnoxious. And annoying. Maybe they’re drawn to her because she puts herself out there and seems so self-assured. But she makes everything about her. And it never ends… or even takes a break. She’s always on. It’s like she’s not human. Like she has no flaws. It must be fucking exhausting.

I used to think she was more like Jules and me. We don’t try to cover up our imperfections… because they make us who we are. Isn’t that how normal people are? Maybe I’m crazy, but I think a touch of insecurity is healthy. And I’m betting Hannah has more than a touch… but she hides it from everyone. I guess by sleeping around. Slut.

Jules and I have stopped telling her when we’re into a guy… because Hannah doesn’t care who she hurts. Not even her friends. Hell, when she knows one of us is interested in someone, she goes into overdrive. The opposite of what a friend would do. She’s done it to Jules. She’s done it to me. God, we barely have any male friends because as soon as we meet anyone, Hannah preys on him before we even get a chance to know the guy. And then it’s just… awkward.

Randy has been an exception… so far. But if Hannah finds out Jules is into in him, things could get messy.

And Ethan… she can’t have him.

what sandra thinks

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‘Dear Diary’ is fiction based on actual events.
Any similarities to your college life is purely coincidental.
Any similarities to mine is entirely intentional.

©2018 what sandra thinks

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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21 Responses to dear diary | h – hannah #atozchallenge

  1. Oh, I’ve known plenty of people like her, male and female. They’re searching for something they’ll never find, or running fro something they’ll never elude. It’s sad to see. But, they’re far from perfect, in spite of being “on” all the time. 😏

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  2. She sounds like the most insecure of all, filling all those empty spaces inappropriately. Nice job!

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  3. Meg says:

    I’ve known ‘Hannahs’ in my time as well. They want what you have and everything is like a competition to see who wins the prize. I think it comes from extreme insecurity sometimes, but some people are just narcissists. Fingers crossed for Randy/Jules and you/Ethan!

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  4. Iain Kelly says:

    I think I could do without Hannah in my life too. Another entertaining entry.

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  5. Suze says:

    pretty sure Hannah needs a swift kick in the patootie!

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  6. Marquessa says:

    Hannah reminds me someone……🤔

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  7. jrvincente says:

    I hate girls like that. But I bet you’re right, there’s more there than meets the eye…

    Jayden R. Vincente
    Erotic Fiction Writer

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  8. Sounds like a few people I know (and coincidentally the girl that is apparently the cause of my current past drama). I think these people suffer from chronically low self-esteem. They want to be the centre of attention and told how amazing they are because they don’t believe it themselves. The trouble is that, it’s all they care about.

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