moody monday. #13

moody monday.

I didn’t realize until just now that I missed posting Moody Monday last week. I don’t even remember why. Oh wait, yes I do. I was a mess last week. I think I know why and hopefully I’m better now. But I’m not sure.

I hate being alone. I used to love it. But now, I only like being alone when I’m not alone. What I mean is… I like being alone and doing my own thing sometimes when other people are home. But being home alone… it doesn’t go well for me anymore. The irony is… I used to search for time alone when I didn’t have any. Now I have too much. And I get bored. And when I’m bored, I think too much and make myself upset.

I’m not bored because I have nothing to do. I have plenty. There’s always some part of the house I could reorganize/straighten up. I could work on more designs for one or more of my shops. I could print some of the designs I’ve already done and photograph them for my Etsy shop. I could write something. And about fifty other things.

But I’m completely uninspired to do any of it. I have no drive. I don’t know where to get motivation. I can’t shake the feeling that everything I do is pointless. I had trouble even getting myself to eat. This morning, I took a nap. Yeah… in the morning… after I’d been awake for about 3 hours. Granted, I’m not feeling well… I have a bad cold…

I wonder if thinking about my mood on Mondays makes me too aware of it and therefore makes me feel worse. I guess that’s possible…

Final assessment: A little down… a little tired… and a lot of nothingness.


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Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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15 Responses to moody monday. #13

  1. I hear ya’. I hate that feeling. I’ll make this a no-cliche Monday, and simply send hugs. 😊

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  2. A great Moody Monday. How about Terrible Tuesday, Woeful Wednesday. Nooooo, only joking.
    Hugs.

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  3. Erin says:

    I’ve never related to something to this extent. It’s one of the worst feelings out there in my opinion, hope you are able to shake it off soon!

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  4. Meg says:

    Ugh, sorry about the cold. Naps are totally allowed any time of day. I’d like to be home alone once in a while. It rarely happens anymore since mother is slowing down a lot. I’ve actually considered renting a house in the mountains for a weekend just for myself, I’m that desperate!

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  5. I know how you feel..coz i hv experienced it,hope you will be OK..at least you can share your feelings with us but when i felt it ,there wasn’t anyone to help me…i was all alone

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  6. Hunida says:

    I’ve been feeling the same way lately. Hope the sun shines for you again soon. ❤

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