I didn’t realize until just now that I missed posting Moody Monday last week. I don’t even remember why. Oh wait, yes I do. I was a mess last week. I think I know why and hopefully I’m better now. But I’m not sure.
I hate being alone. I used to love it. But now, I only like being alone when I’m not alone. What I mean is… I like being alone and doing my own thing sometimes when other people are home. But being home alone… it doesn’t go well for me anymore. The irony is… I used to search for time alone when I didn’t have any. Now I have too much. And I get bored. And when I’m bored, I think too much and make myself upset.
I’m not bored because I have nothing to do. I have plenty. There’s always some part of the house I could reorganize/straighten up. I could work on more designs for one or more of my shops. I could print some of the designs I’ve already done and photograph them for my Etsy shop. I could write something. And about fifty other things.
But I’m completely uninspired to do any of it. I have no drive. I don’t know where to get motivation. I can’t shake the feeling that everything I do is pointless. I had trouble even getting myself to eat. This morning, I took a nap. Yeah… in the morning… after I’d been awake for about 3 hours. Granted, I’m not feeling well… I have a bad cold…
I wonder if thinking about my mood on Mondays makes me too aware of it and therefore makes me feel worse. I guess that’s possible…
Final assessment: A little down… a little tired… and a lot of nothingness.
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I hear ya’. I hate that feeling. I’ll make this a no-cliche Monday, and simply send hugs. 😊
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Thanks 🙂
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I’m sorry, my dear. I’d hoped you’d be feeling better by now. Hang in ther……oops! I almost dropped a cliche. I’ll smack myself for you. 😃
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Haha… 🙂
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A great Moody Monday. How about Terrible Tuesday, Woeful Wednesday. Nooooo, only joking.
Hugs.
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I could probably do a version every day… I’m pretty moody… 🙂
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You could have a Fractious Friday, but follow with a Scintillating Saturday.
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I’ve never related to something to this extent. It’s one of the worst feelings out there in my opinion, hope you are able to shake it off soon!
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Thank you! I’m sorry you know how this feels because it’s terrible!
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Ugh, sorry about the cold. Naps are totally allowed any time of day. I’d like to be home alone once in a while. It rarely happens anymore since mother is slowing down a lot. I’ve actually considered renting a house in the mountains for a weekend just for myself, I’m that desperate!
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I used to feel that way… but lately, I’m just hating being alone…
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I know how you feel..coz i hv experienced it,hope you will be OK..at least you can share your feelings with us but when i felt it ,there wasn’t anyone to help me…i was all alone
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Thank you.
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I’ve been feeling the same way lately. Hope the sun shines for you again soon. ❤
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Thank you… and I hope the same for you… ♥
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