Maybe my brain is tired of sadness and anxiety and that feeling of hopelessness that’s always trying to creep in. Maybe that’s why my mind has opened to a new emotion… one I don’t feel quite as often. Anger.
Nah… it’s not just my brain growing sick of all other emotions. I know exactly why I’m angry. But I’m not going to get into it. I realize it’s rare for me to not open up and dump my personal junk all over the place. But I just don’t want to right now.
Being angry makes me feel more powerful (is that the word I want?) than being sad or anxious or hopeless. Not that I have any control over which emotions take over. Maybe I’m supposed to… but I don’t.
Anyway… anger makes me want Nine Inch Nails. This song is a commentary on the current uh… situation in my country. But that’s not why I chose it. I chose it because, as he often does, Trent Reznor sounds pissed off. Like me.
Too many fucking people
You’ll have to take care of yourselves
You know I’ve got my hands full
Oh, what are you waiting for?
You got what you asked for
Did it fix what was wrong with you?
Are you less than?